Sitting here trying to decide what to do next.
Go to work. Done.
Spent a bit of time on Skyrim, took a shower, just got finished studying for a couple of hours. Checked in to my FB for like the billionth time since I got home. Yes, I am a full blown Facebook whore.
It occupies enough of my time that I don't get bored. Besides, it's how I keep track of my friends and their shenanigans and how they keep track of me, since I refuse to have a phone.
That will change before the end of the year, but for now, I'm enjoying the peace and quiet.
I have a lot of work I want to put into this blog and I have the time to do it now, but I'm not gonna work on it RIGHT now.
I think I have to put a little work into GW2 before I take my nap. Then up to study again and write a couple of papers. It's just a matter of whether that studying will get done before more gaming or after. It is my day off after all...my last day off before another shitty weekend at work. Which means the soonest I will see my gaming family again would be next Monday....
Guess I just answered my own question about what will be taking priority later this afternoon!!
27 September 2012
23 September 2012
No gaming tonight.
Sitting here watching "King of the Hill" on Netflix until I pass out, work tomorrow. Thank goodness it's my Friday. Especially after today's incident.
I am pretty tolerant when it comes to rude behavior from customers. My normal view on things is that none of the people that filter in and out of my job, even regular customers, don't know me, nor will they ever. Do I care what their opinion of me is?
Absolutely, positively...hell no.
So after listening to today's douchebag swear at me and call me names over fries that the CASHIER was not supposed to have bagged up yet as his sandwiches were not ready, that I had every intention of replacing once his food was done, I just got fed up. Even after being berated by this moron after telling the cashier to make sure she got the old fries and put them in waste, as management is very strict about watching food cost, I still tried to keep quiet. It was when he leaned over the counter and accused me of implying he was trying to get free food, I made only one statement to this person. I can't call him a man because REAL men don't act like that, and I won't call him a boy either because that is an insult to the younger generation of future men who possibly haven't been taught you don't speak to people in that manner.
The statement I made was this...in these exact words...
"I think it's really sad that your life is so bad that you have nothing better to do with your time than to harass fast food workers over french fries. I really am sad for you....I'm sorry."
Guess he didn't like that too much hahahahahaha
So he continued to swear at me and basically made an ass of himself in front of a restaurant full of customers, which I continued to ignore. Oddly enough, I have discovered over the years that when you ignore someone who is trying to harass you, they just get more angry.
I'm not gonna lie, I think it's fantastic when that happens.
He finally decided to leave and so I figured the whole episode was over. Besides, I had already moved on as I had customers who needed to be helped. While I was handing out the next couple of orders, the customers who I spoke to that had witnessed everything told me that they were surprised about how calm I was during all of it and they would have handled things a lot more violently than they did. Funny as hell. One of my regulars I told...
"I'm not allowed to do that anymore, I can't risk my financial aid!!" True story.
About 3 or 4 minutes passed and that son of a bitch came back. He went out of his way to look for the manager, which was Willie tonight, and asked him for a plastic bag. He then stated he hadn't asked for one before he left because "those two bitches at the front counter probably wouldn't have given me one."
That's when it happened...SNAP!!
Call me all the names you want in the world, say whatever you will, believe me, I've been up against bigger and badder than you, nothing you will do can phase me.
Treat any of my friends or family like that though, consider yourself fucked.
So I turned to my cashier, my friend Elida and said, "Man, he (Willie) better get the motherfucker out of here, someone's about to get fucked up. If he think I can't beat a dude's ass, he's about to find out the truth about that!"
To which King Douche then states, "See??? She just called me a motherfucker!! You let people like that work here???"
To which I stated, "YEAH, they do, and guess what?? I will be back here the next time you come back and I'm gonna make sure EVERYONE else who works here knows exactly who you are. Let's see how the service you get is gonna be after that!"
Fucking asshole.
I'm sorry if your life sucks, but I honestly could give two fucks. I save my sympathy for the people who deserve it. For the people who have been through unimaginable shit and survived, even more so for the people who didn't make it. As much shit as I've been through in this first part of my life, I always keep this perspective in mind...
I was lucky enough to be born strong and with good sense. I survived far many more situations in life than I ought to have had to, but you know what? As horrendous as my life was, there are so many more who had it even worse and if they were able to survive it, many of them didn't end up as lucky as me. I've been taking care of my self for what seems like forever, I work, I take care of all my needs on my own and I try every day to lead by example. I'm a worst case scenario that was repaired as well as can be expected. It's work to wake up and attempt to be normal every damn day of my life, but I deal with and do my best to appreciate that fact that I am alive at all.
It's the best I can do.
For those who think it's okay to shit on people, whether you know them or not, over something as petty as french fries or anything else equally petty I have only one thing to say to you.
Go..
Fuck...
Yourself...
...
Please!!
Hopefully tomorrow will not be so obnoxious. I have homework to do and gaming to catch up on!!
Cheers! :)
Sitting here watching "King of the Hill" on Netflix until I pass out, work tomorrow. Thank goodness it's my Friday. Especially after today's incident.
I am pretty tolerant when it comes to rude behavior from customers. My normal view on things is that none of the people that filter in and out of my job, even regular customers, don't know me, nor will they ever. Do I care what their opinion of me is?
Absolutely, positively...hell no.
So after listening to today's douchebag swear at me and call me names over fries that the CASHIER was not supposed to have bagged up yet as his sandwiches were not ready, that I had every intention of replacing once his food was done, I just got fed up. Even after being berated by this moron after telling the cashier to make sure she got the old fries and put them in waste, as management is very strict about watching food cost, I still tried to keep quiet. It was when he leaned over the counter and accused me of implying he was trying to get free food, I made only one statement to this person. I can't call him a man because REAL men don't act like that, and I won't call him a boy either because that is an insult to the younger generation of future men who possibly haven't been taught you don't speak to people in that manner.
The statement I made was this...in these exact words...
"I think it's really sad that your life is so bad that you have nothing better to do with your time than to harass fast food workers over french fries. I really am sad for you....I'm sorry."
Guess he didn't like that too much hahahahahaha
So he continued to swear at me and basically made an ass of himself in front of a restaurant full of customers, which I continued to ignore. Oddly enough, I have discovered over the years that when you ignore someone who is trying to harass you, they just get more angry.
I'm not gonna lie, I think it's fantastic when that happens.
He finally decided to leave and so I figured the whole episode was over. Besides, I had already moved on as I had customers who needed to be helped. While I was handing out the next couple of orders, the customers who I spoke to that had witnessed everything told me that they were surprised about how calm I was during all of it and they would have handled things a lot more violently than they did. Funny as hell. One of my regulars I told...
"I'm not allowed to do that anymore, I can't risk my financial aid!!" True story.
About 3 or 4 minutes passed and that son of a bitch came back. He went out of his way to look for the manager, which was Willie tonight, and asked him for a plastic bag. He then stated he hadn't asked for one before he left because "those two bitches at the front counter probably wouldn't have given me one."
That's when it happened...SNAP!!
Call me all the names you want in the world, say whatever you will, believe me, I've been up against bigger and badder than you, nothing you will do can phase me.
Treat any of my friends or family like that though, consider yourself fucked.
So I turned to my cashier, my friend Elida and said, "Man, he (Willie) better get the motherfucker out of here, someone's about to get fucked up. If he think I can't beat a dude's ass, he's about to find out the truth about that!"
To which King Douche then states, "See??? She just called me a motherfucker!! You let people like that work here???"
To which I stated, "YEAH, they do, and guess what?? I will be back here the next time you come back and I'm gonna make sure EVERYONE else who works here knows exactly who you are. Let's see how the service you get is gonna be after that!"
Fucking asshole.
I'm sorry if your life sucks, but I honestly could give two fucks. I save my sympathy for the people who deserve it. For the people who have been through unimaginable shit and survived, even more so for the people who didn't make it. As much shit as I've been through in this first part of my life, I always keep this perspective in mind...
I was lucky enough to be born strong and with good sense. I survived far many more situations in life than I ought to have had to, but you know what? As horrendous as my life was, there are so many more who had it even worse and if they were able to survive it, many of them didn't end up as lucky as me. I've been taking care of my self for what seems like forever, I work, I take care of all my needs on my own and I try every day to lead by example. I'm a worst case scenario that was repaired as well as can be expected. It's work to wake up and attempt to be normal every damn day of my life, but I deal with and do my best to appreciate that fact that I am alive at all.
It's the best I can do.
For those who think it's okay to shit on people, whether you know them or not, over something as petty as french fries or anything else equally petty I have only one thing to say to you.
Go..
Fuck...
Yourself...
...
Please!!
Hopefully tomorrow will not be so obnoxious. I have homework to do and gaming to catch up on!!
Cheers! :)
20 September 2012
Man, you take a quarter off from school...
Totally forgot how much having the responsibility of school and homework can interfere in the things you enjoy most. In my case, it's gaming. Now that the game I have been waiting so long for is here and I'm now officially playing it, it really sucks that school just HAD to start a mere two days after I got my laptop.
I was just happily playing when I that gnawing thought in the back of my head reminded me that I had RESPONSIBILITY again and that I needed to do my damn schoolwork. The benefit of having a regular schedule at work is you know exactly how much time you have to dedicate to all the obligations in your life, whatever they may be. In my case, since I fucked off my other two days off this week in game, I now need to dedicate however much time necessary to complete my assignments for the week. Work is not due until 9pm Sunday night, but as I work a ridiculous amount of hours on the weekend in order to keep my 3 days off, I won't have the time, nor will I want to do homework or studying after work.
So here I am. Getting ready to write the obligatory "tell your teacher a little something about yourself" paper, which must be done before I can start receiving my assignments.
What am I, in kindergarten??
Well, the faster I get that done, as it is very early (in my world), I should still have time to put in 3 or 4 more hours of gaming before my pre-work nap.
Sleep is for suckers... >:-D
17 September 2012
Day three.
This is officially my first full day with my new love. I don't know if I can say it really counts as that, as this is my first full day with my new piece of electronic joy and happiness since I've been working pretty much non-stop since Friday and this last hour has been the first interrupted time I've had to play with it.
I've already checked into classes, with the intention of working on homework most of tomorrow. Classes should be fairly easy this quarter, though they usually are for me....as long as they are interesting. I tend to have a harder time paying attention when the learning is TOO easy. Sad, eh?
Currently loading all my music into my baby, though I know it's going to take at least the next couple of weeks to complete, due to the immensity of my music collection and the fact that it is all being ripped from CD's. Yes, I still buy music old school like. I'm all about artist support.
I'm close to done with that though, as I have a VERY long night of GW2 ahead of me.
I guess more accurate would be the rest of the night slated for GW2.
Good thing I don't work tomorrow!!!
This is officially my first full day with my new love. I don't know if I can say it really counts as that, as this is my first full day with my new piece of electronic joy and happiness since I've been working pretty much non-stop since Friday and this last hour has been the first interrupted time I've had to play with it.
I've already checked into classes, with the intention of working on homework most of tomorrow. Classes should be fairly easy this quarter, though they usually are for me....as long as they are interesting. I tend to have a harder time paying attention when the learning is TOO easy. Sad, eh?
Currently loading all my music into my baby, though I know it's going to take at least the next couple of weeks to complete, due to the immensity of my music collection and the fact that it is all being ripped from CD's. Yes, I still buy music old school like. I'm all about artist support.
I'm close to done with that though, as I have a VERY long night of GW2 ahead of me.
I guess more accurate would be the rest of the night slated for GW2.
Good thing I don't work tomorrow!!!
16 September 2012
So in love!!! ^_^
With my new fucking laptop that is!!!!
MUAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
It would be the same reaction if it was a brand new desktop that performed as well as this damn thing does, but it's a laptop....and now I can do this, homework, game and whore myself on Facebook from the convenience of my bed.
Though I don't really sleep much, my bed is comfortable as hell and still my favorite place to spend my time :-D
Currently downloading the Sims 3 onto this bad boy. I've had the game for awhile, but due to the fact that my desktop is old and wasn't really designed for gaming, Sims 3 didn't really work well on it. I was lucky if I could get a good 5-6 minutes in the game before it froze or reset my computer. Now on the rare occasions I need to take a break from playing GW2 (which probably won't be until sometime next year hahaha), I will have a practically brand new game (for me) to play.
/win
I also intend on downloading Skyrim onto this thing too, since I have a copy for PC I got from my buddy Jason.
And sometime tomorrow when I finally get home from work, I have to remember to download Microsoft Office, because I will need to have MS Word in order to do my fucking homework. Bleehhhh... Not happy about school starting again only because it will be cutting into my gaming time.
I have waited so damn long as it is!!! Guild Wars 2 was supposedly going to be out last November, but all of us expected that wasn't really going to be the case. Waited and waited VERY impatiently for a release date, and finally got one...August 28th we finally get our game!!
Then my PC dies, I can't afford to replace it in a timely enough manner to be able to participate in all the beta weekends for my game.
/fail
Then my BFFF, my bestest friend in the whole damn world surprised me by buying me my copy of the game. That was seriously like the best day ever!! I originally estimated I would have enough money in order to buy my new PC approximately 2 weeks before release of the game. So even though I had missed the betas, at least I would get to be in on the 3 day head start, right? Turns out I was still a little short of what I needed and had to wait another month.
/fail
Now that month is officially over and I sit here grinning like an idiot while I write this on my beautiful piece of electronic heaven. Now that this game has finished downloading....
...time to get back to it.
Sleep is for suckers mode has officially been started...
MUAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
It would be the same reaction if it was a brand new desktop that performed as well as this damn thing does, but it's a laptop....and now I can do this, homework, game and whore myself on Facebook from the convenience of my bed.
Though I don't really sleep much, my bed is comfortable as hell and still my favorite place to spend my time :-D
Currently downloading the Sims 3 onto this bad boy. I've had the game for awhile, but due to the fact that my desktop is old and wasn't really designed for gaming, Sims 3 didn't really work well on it. I was lucky if I could get a good 5-6 minutes in the game before it froze or reset my computer. Now on the rare occasions I need to take a break from playing GW2 (which probably won't be until sometime next year hahaha), I will have a practically brand new game (for me) to play.
/win
I also intend on downloading Skyrim onto this thing too, since I have a copy for PC I got from my buddy Jason.
And sometime tomorrow when I finally get home from work, I have to remember to download Microsoft Office, because I will need to have MS Word in order to do my fucking homework. Bleehhhh... Not happy about school starting again only because it will be cutting into my gaming time.
I have waited so damn long as it is!!! Guild Wars 2 was supposedly going to be out last November, but all of us expected that wasn't really going to be the case. Waited and waited VERY impatiently for a release date, and finally got one...August 28th we finally get our game!!
Then my PC dies, I can't afford to replace it in a timely enough manner to be able to participate in all the beta weekends for my game.
/fail
Then my BFFF, my bestest friend in the whole damn world surprised me by buying me my copy of the game. That was seriously like the best day ever!! I originally estimated I would have enough money in order to buy my new PC approximately 2 weeks before release of the game. So even though I had missed the betas, at least I would get to be in on the 3 day head start, right? Turns out I was still a little short of what I needed and had to wait another month.
/fail
Now that month is officially over and I sit here grinning like an idiot while I write this on my beautiful piece of electronic heaven. Now that this game has finished downloading....
...time to get back to it.
Sleep is for suckers mode has officially been started...
05 September 2012
Sooooo frustrated right now!!!
So yeah...
Computer is not working properly and is such a pain to get onto I haven't been bothering much. This is only troublesome due to my horrendous Facebook addiction. Since it's basically how I stay connected to the world AND assure my friends that I am indeed still alive, not being there usually garners me many messages of...
"WTF?? Where the hell are you??"
For fucks sake, does it really matter?
Anyone who has been friends with me long enough should know by now how reclusive I am. It's not that I don't care or I don't want to talk to you, it's just me, you should all be used to it!!! Probably doesn't help that my phone has been off for a year now (just realized that) and it is nearly impossible to contact me. Having it turned back on is one of several things I intend to take care of before the year is out. Also high on my priority list is getting a new passport, as it has been AGES since I have been back "home" to Vancouver. It's the one place I always felt I was meant to be and where I've always been happiest.
I will be getting my new laptop in about a week and a half, which means a ridiculous amount of time will be spent here writing....that is between my massive sessions of GW2 and equally massive sessions of fucking homework. Just a means to an end. Proper job (that isn't Wendy's or any other type of customer service) means that I will be able to set up my own retirement fund and also be able to make sure my father is taken care of in his. Good thing I don't want for much, eh??
So even though I have been non-existent in the last couple of weeks, believe me, that will change, to the point of making everyone nauseous I'm sure... ;-)
Computer is not working properly and is such a pain to get onto I haven't been bothering much. This is only troublesome due to my horrendous Facebook addiction. Since it's basically how I stay connected to the world AND assure my friends that I am indeed still alive, not being there usually garners me many messages of...
"WTF?? Where the hell are you??"
For fucks sake, does it really matter?
Anyone who has been friends with me long enough should know by now how reclusive I am. It's not that I don't care or I don't want to talk to you, it's just me, you should all be used to it!!! Probably doesn't help that my phone has been off for a year now (just realized that) and it is nearly impossible to contact me. Having it turned back on is one of several things I intend to take care of before the year is out. Also high on my priority list is getting a new passport, as it has been AGES since I have been back "home" to Vancouver. It's the one place I always felt I was meant to be and where I've always been happiest.
I will be getting my new laptop in about a week and a half, which means a ridiculous amount of time will be spent here writing....that is between my massive sessions of GW2 and equally massive sessions of fucking homework. Just a means to an end. Proper job (that isn't Wendy's or any other type of customer service) means that I will be able to set up my own retirement fund and also be able to make sure my father is taken care of in his. Good thing I don't want for much, eh??
So even though I have been non-existent in the last couple of weeks, believe me, that will change, to the point of making everyone nauseous I'm sure... ;-)
13 August 2012
Too fucking hot...
So I finally have a day off.
...and it's too damn hot to do anything!!
Well, it's not scorching or anything like when I was living in Omaha, but it's still warm enough to make me incredibly lazy.
I keep going back and forth with myself about whether I want to game or just continue watching Netflix but continue to come to no real decision, so I just go lay back down and frown at my ceiling. With time differences and the fact that we are now so close to launch date for our game, I doubt any of my guildies are even logged on at the moment. I'm sure we'll be inseparable once again soon enough, but for now....
...nothing much in game going on. Booooooooo....
As it is, I'm gonna have to wait an extra couple of weeks to even get on the game, as I need to earn a little more cash towards my new computer, but since I've waited this long, a couple more weeks won't kill me. That is of course assuming that I don't constantly view posts or get messages on FB from my friends about how EPIC the game is and the "where the hell are you??" notes. That would suck.
I may try to finally install the awesome graphics card I got for Xmas a couple of years ago from my BFFF, as I know a hell of a lot more about computers than I did when I received it. Hopefully I won't break my shit! Hahaha.
Guess we'll all know what happened if I don't write anything for a while. Would have written more this weekend if it wasn't for the fact I spent so much damn time at work. Saturday night was drunk moron day in the drive-thru, with the best statement of the night coming from a woman who was more than old enough to know better that to be out drunk driving in Lakewood. Asked her if we could take her order and the first words out of her mouth were "You guys are actually open! I can't believe it!"
The place was lit up like fucking Christmas AND there is a huge sign on the window that says "Open 'til 2am daily!". It was not even midnight when she came through...
Besides, if you thought we weren't open, why the fuck did you attempt rolling through to order food??
And everyone wonders why I love people so much.
I can't wait until I'm done with school.
I need to find a movie to watch or something while I figure out something more interesting to write about. Had some ideas in my head about some stuff, but kinda lost it after a very long weekend, sure it will come back to me eventually.
For now, I'm off!!
...and it's too damn hot to do anything!!
Well, it's not scorching or anything like when I was living in Omaha, but it's still warm enough to make me incredibly lazy.
I keep going back and forth with myself about whether I want to game or just continue watching Netflix but continue to come to no real decision, so I just go lay back down and frown at my ceiling. With time differences and the fact that we are now so close to launch date for our game, I doubt any of my guildies are even logged on at the moment. I'm sure we'll be inseparable once again soon enough, but for now....
...nothing much in game going on. Booooooooo....
As it is, I'm gonna have to wait an extra couple of weeks to even get on the game, as I need to earn a little more cash towards my new computer, but since I've waited this long, a couple more weeks won't kill me. That is of course assuming that I don't constantly view posts or get messages on FB from my friends about how EPIC the game is and the "where the hell are you??" notes. That would suck.
I may try to finally install the awesome graphics card I got for Xmas a couple of years ago from my BFFF, as I know a hell of a lot more about computers than I did when I received it. Hopefully I won't break my shit! Hahaha.
Guess we'll all know what happened if I don't write anything for a while. Would have written more this weekend if it wasn't for the fact I spent so much damn time at work. Saturday night was drunk moron day in the drive-thru, with the best statement of the night coming from a woman who was more than old enough to know better that to be out drunk driving in Lakewood. Asked her if we could take her order and the first words out of her mouth were "You guys are actually open! I can't believe it!"
The place was lit up like fucking Christmas AND there is a huge sign on the window that says "Open 'til 2am daily!". It was not even midnight when she came through...
Besides, if you thought we weren't open, why the fuck did you attempt rolling through to order food??
And everyone wonders why I love people so much.
I can't wait until I'm done with school.
I need to find a movie to watch or something while I figure out something more interesting to write about. Had some ideas in my head about some stuff, but kinda lost it after a very long weekend, sure it will come back to me eventually.
For now, I'm off!!
11 August 2012
It was a long day today.
Work was just a reminder of why it was a good decision (not really mine) to go back to school. My distaste for the general public continues to grow on a daily basis.
It's not everyone. I still meet nice people on occasion and I have a lot of regular customers that I'm glad to see, as I know they will not give me hassle. There are just things I hear or see everyday that have always gotten on my nerves and as time marches on, they irritate the shit out of me more and more.
One of the biggest? People feeding their children what basically equates to unhealthy crap after midnight. I ended up stuck at work longer than I was supposed to be (as usual) and the last thing I heard over my headset before I chucked it onto the table in disgust was a parent ordering 2 kid's meals for her children....at 12:45 in the a.m. Seriously...what the FUCK?? Why are your children not sleeping?? Not only are they still awake at this time, you are barely feeding them dinner, at Wendy's, this late at night? And people wonder why childhood obesity is running rampant in our country.
Fucking assholes.
People and their damn cell phones, mobile devices, whatever the fuck they are now. I swear on my life these people only use their phones AS a phone when it will irritate me the most. You know, like when they have been standing in line for 10 minutes waiting for me to take their order and they wait until it's their turn before they finally decide to call their family member, buddy, or what have you to say...
"Hey, I'm at Wendy's....you want anything?" The best part? When they start reading off the whole menu over the phone and the 15 people behind them who already know what they want are frowning at ME like I'm the one who is being discourteous.
If I was allowed to put hands on some of these people I swear they would have those fancy little pieces of plastic crammed straight up their ass.
Little less than two years until graduation and I am DONE with customer service for-fucking-ever.
I remember the days when I thought I could do these jobs forever....long gone.
They keep trying to get me to do management and I keep telling them "no spank you" because I enjoy having a LIFE. It may not be much of one, considering that I spend what time I have gaming, watching movies, listening to music and school, but it's mine and my time is precious dammit!!
Even though I just got home from that pit 2 hours ago, I must now try to take a nap because I need to be back there in about 7 hours. Have to be ready to go because IMPORTANT people (saarccassmmm) are going to be hanging out there most of the day tomorrow watching to see how we "operate".
It's fast food assholes, we aren't fucking saving lives. If anything, we are contributing to a quicker demise for some of them. 10 hours in that place tomorrow (later today, whatever) will hopefully garner at least one interesting story.
We shall have to see now, won't we?? :-D
10 August 2012
A New Beginning
Sometimes I wonder what it would like to be normal.
Then I laugh hysterically and remember I wasn't meant to be like everyone else. I also realize that is just the way I like it.
I rarely sleep. Sleep is for dead people!!
I'm more capable of being myself behind this keyboard than I am when I'm face to face with people. I have a general distrust for most of existence, it's just easier to keep my mouth shut when I'm outside the four walls of my room.
I love most of my family and all my friends, but still tend to keep my distance. Trusting the right people has never been my strong point in life. What can I say, I'm a sucker like that. Luckily I have one of the most awesome groups of friends in the world and they are willing to put up with my eccentricities because they love me.
I miss this part of my life more than I realized. Doing this writing thing I mean. It was the way I used to express myself best and I was damn good at it. I had a pretty good following and even had offers to be sponsored and paid to do it.
Things happened, I gave up a lot of stuff I shouldn't have and now here we are. It's like....fuck sakes....a little over 3 years later and I believe I might be ready to take my life back. To some degree at least.
It's time to concentrate on the few things I have left that make ME happy.
Number 1 is this blog. While my original still exists, I will no longer add to it. I may go back for occasional notes and sections of writings that deserve rehashing, but other than that, I will likely not lead people to it. Too many memories of things I don't want to deal with and frankly toward the end, too much fucking whining.
Not really cool with that...
Major number 2, and just as important as number 1, is my gaming. Yes, I'm a gamer...MASSIVE gamer to be more precise. As one who dealt with major trauma during actual childhood and who had to be an adult by age 7, I have regressed. I am currently living through my missed childhood and will likely continue to do so until they put me out to pasture. By that I mean my friends who have been left in charge of my "end of life" rituals of nonsense put my ashes in a Folger's can and attempt to toss me out to sea 'Lebowski style'.
My apologies to whomever gets the blow back.
So now I take back what I can of my life and live for no one but myself and fuck whoever can't deal with that. My life is about my writing, my gaming, listening to my music, going to concerts, travelling, and the variety of little things that make me happy. To my family (sister, brothers, my niece, my pops, my dad, my mama) and friends that I adore and would give my life's blood for, I will always be here for all and any of you when you need me.
So for those who happen upon this, those I lead here, etc, be prepared. I swear like a truck driver (thanks Dad), share the music I love, post random shit and funny stories, rant when the need arises, and do my best to entertain.
After all, isn't there some saying about "sharing is caring", or some such shit??
Then I laugh hysterically and remember I wasn't meant to be like everyone else. I also realize that is just the way I like it.
I rarely sleep. Sleep is for dead people!!
I'm more capable of being myself behind this keyboard than I am when I'm face to face with people. I have a general distrust for most of existence, it's just easier to keep my mouth shut when I'm outside the four walls of my room.
I love most of my family and all my friends, but still tend to keep my distance. Trusting the right people has never been my strong point in life. What can I say, I'm a sucker like that. Luckily I have one of the most awesome groups of friends in the world and they are willing to put up with my eccentricities because they love me.
I miss this part of my life more than I realized. Doing this writing thing I mean. It was the way I used to express myself best and I was damn good at it. I had a pretty good following and even had offers to be sponsored and paid to do it.
Things happened, I gave up a lot of stuff I shouldn't have and now here we are. It's like....fuck sakes....a little over 3 years later and I believe I might be ready to take my life back. To some degree at least.
It's time to concentrate on the few things I have left that make ME happy.
Number 1 is this blog. While my original still exists, I will no longer add to it. I may go back for occasional notes and sections of writings that deserve rehashing, but other than that, I will likely not lead people to it. Too many memories of things I don't want to deal with and frankly toward the end, too much fucking whining.
Not really cool with that...
Major number 2, and just as important as number 1, is my gaming. Yes, I'm a gamer...MASSIVE gamer to be more precise. As one who dealt with major trauma during actual childhood and who had to be an adult by age 7, I have regressed. I am currently living through my missed childhood and will likely continue to do so until they put me out to pasture. By that I mean my friends who have been left in charge of my "end of life" rituals of nonsense put my ashes in a Folger's can and attempt to toss me out to sea 'Lebowski style'.
My apologies to whomever gets the blow back.
So now I take back what I can of my life and live for no one but myself and fuck whoever can't deal with that. My life is about my writing, my gaming, listening to my music, going to concerts, travelling, and the variety of little things that make me happy. To my family (sister, brothers, my niece, my pops, my dad, my mama) and friends that I adore and would give my life's blood for, I will always be here for all and any of you when you need me.
So for those who happen upon this, those I lead here, etc, be prepared. I swear like a truck driver (thanks Dad), share the music I love, post random shit and funny stories, rant when the need arises, and do my best to entertain.
After all, isn't there some saying about "sharing is caring", or some such shit??
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