I'm so tired of posting this depressing shit already.

Not gonna do it anymore.

Can't say my mood has improved much, but at least I'm to a point where I can hide it again.

It's been a survival tool of mine for years, and has proved useful on far too many occasions. The hurt I have dealt with over the last couple of months has been worse than anything I've had to deal with before, and that is saying a lot, considering my past.

I will make it through it though...I always do. So moving on....

I bought batteries for my camera (finally *rolls eyes*), so now it is time to get back to it. Time to start my writing again, and dedicate just as much time to it as I used to. For those who have read my ramblings before, you know this is just my diary. I share a lot more than most would, but it's just me, as I don't have anything to hide really, never have. There are some parts of my life that I choose to keep private, but those are few. This blog will prove that point again shortly.

Honest to a fault, that would be me. Sometimes an advantage, has also been known to be detrimental. As is my life. I just go with it. Nothing better to do really hahaha

Going to hang out for the next couple of days with one of my buddies. When I'm not there, the animals miss me. Two dogs, three cats. They all adore me, it's like having pets of my own again without the actual responsibility. Gonna play with my camera tonight when I get there and get some pics posted of them in their awesomeness.

Cheers all. ;)

Yeah, I haven't been here. There is a reason.

Aside from the fact that I've been too busy with school, my thoughts have been way too dark and ugly for me to want to put them down for public consumption.

It's hard to talk sometimes when you don't like yourself anymore.

Even at my worst times, it was never difficult to get it out of my system.

Guess those times weren't as bad as I had thought. Not like these are.

One more class in the morning, and this quarter is complete. To be quite honest, I really couldn't care less. If it wasn't for the fact that I already have financial aid covering the bill for now, and I'm financially committed already, I wouldn't bother continuing. My heart just isn't in it anymore.

My heart is just not there anymore. Period.