Yeah, I haven't been here. There is a reason.

Aside from the fact that I've been too busy with school, my thoughts have been way too dark and ugly for me to want to put them down for public consumption.

It's hard to talk sometimes when you don't like yourself anymore.

Even at my worst times, it was never difficult to get it out of my system.

Guess those times weren't as bad as I had thought. Not like these are.

One more class in the morning, and this quarter is complete. To be quite honest, I really couldn't care less. If it wasn't for the fact that I already have financial aid covering the bill for now, and I'm financially committed already, I wouldn't bother continuing. My heart just isn't in it anymore.

My heart is just not there anymore. Period.