I wish I could make more time for this like I really, REALLY want to!!

Working on it.

Been spending all my time concentrating on a stupid job that honestly isn't worth my time and effort, but since it pays my rent, I suck it up and do it anyway. 

I've been doing better about keeping up with my homework this quarter, as letting my job take over my life helped me fail not one, but TWO classes last quarter.  That has never happened before and I'm not pleased to say the least. Dropped my GPA down to a 3.3.  I guess that's not really anything I should be crying about in general, but since I'm a highest honors graduate once already, not pleased at all. Yeah, I can bring it back up easy enough, but I still have to pay to take these damn classes again, so it sucks. Making up one of them already this quarter, but will have to make up the other next quarter.  Still need to talk to my adviser about switching majors, but I will do that at the beginning of the year. 

As for now, I will be on Xmas vacation in a couple of days, which will give me time to concentrate on nothing except the VERY few things in life that make me happy. Video games, music and writing, which is what I do here...kinda :p

So much work I want to do on this blog, so much I plan on doing, just gotta get through this weekend at work and I'm set. Talk to you all soon.

Cheers! :)

Been so busy lately it's been fairly ridiculous.

Just when I get ready to start writing full time again, get caught up with homework, work drama and just unrelated nonsense.

Should give me plenty to write about, eh?

It has, just got to remember to make the time to do it!!

Back soon enough...

Cheers!

A new day..

...with nothing new actually going on.

Got some stuff accomplished today though, which was good.  Just finishing up my laundry while I load all my music into my laptop. I have a TON of fucking music, so it is a very time consuming process to rip all my music off CD's onto the computer. Not difficult, literally just time consuming.

While this is going on, I'm also working on homework, dinner and room organization.  On my next day off, which is Thursday, I have to speak to the higher authorities (school peoples) about switching majors. Gotta get that done before I get any farther into this program.  We'll see what they say. Then I have to mail off my W-2 to the nice lady at H & R Block in Omaha who fixed an IRS screw up for me when she filed my taxes this year. I didn't have the W-2 available when she did it, which sucks, but now that I have it, once they send the paperwork in, that's almost $600 the government owes me that I will really be able to use when it gets here.

It will be outstanding, especially since it will get here about the time I'm getting my refund for next year.

Paying shit off will be awesome.

I plan on doing some more work on this later tonight in the midst of all my other multi-tasking, adding pics, music and such.  Also gotta see if I can salvage the videos I made at the 5FDP show back in May.

So much to do, good thing I barely sleep!! ;)

Cheers!

Back to basics...

Well, though I used this title on the 'new' blog I just shut down, I'm using it again here, a) because I can and b) because it's appropriate.

You will obviously see what I started out with, notice all the space where I did nothing but talk about how I was starting to write again and now round 3, where I actually am writing again.  I started the new blog because I was trying to hide and thought by making a new page it would fix things.

It didn't (I know, duh, right?).

It's okay though, I always figure these things out eventually.  Now I'm back, balls to the fucking wall and not giving a fuck.

That's just me. It has to be because the VERY few times in life I tried to care, it just ended up fucking up my life more.

Life is too short, I don't have time for the bullshit.

Living life for me and me alone, don't give a damn who likes it or not. Luckily, I have the world's greatest friends, at least a few good family members left, the most awesome BFFF in the world and all these people make the best support system imaginable.

So I decided to come back to where it all started. To my original blog, which shows the different stages and emotions an ordinary girl from everywhere and nowhere has been through over the last five years.

The next phase starts with me switching majors in school and beginning a new world of possibilities for myself.  A world where I won't have to edit my behavior and who I am like I was expected to do going into the field of criminal justice.  Past wrongs that were done to me should not be able to keep me from doing what I can to help people, but it seems that once again my past is rearing its ugly head and fucking things up for me.

So I now do what I always do.

Suck it up, change direction and move the fuck on.

Welcome to the ride, buckle up motherfuckers!

Cheers! >:-)

Love is supposed to be a wonderful thing, right?

Unfortunately, that is not always the case.

Sometimes, to prove how much you love something or someone, you have to let it go...

...figuratively speaking that is.

See, the deal is, for a lot of us, love is not what we thought it was going to be.

For some, like my grandparents and even friends of mine, it happens right away.  You meet the person that was intended for you, the bond is immediate and nothing can separate two people whose hearts were meant for each other.

On the other side of the coin, you eventually meet the person you were intended for, but sometimes the bond you thought would always keep you together is broken.  It may not have even been the fault of either party, but outside interference, unfortunate circumstance or what have you.

That is when you figure out what true love really is.

When every waking thought is about that other person, when your only real concern is whether or not they are okay, when you hear their voice or see their face and it just brings on that rush of emotion, you know.

When you would give everything of yourself  to ensure the happiness of that person, no matter the consequence to yourself, you know.

When they are the first thought in your head when you wake up and the last before you go to bed, even when you haven't seen or spoken to them for an extended period of time, it doesn't matter.

When you would rather spend the rest of your life alone because you know you could not live the lie of pretending to love someone else, knowing that one person owns all the love in your heart that you have to give....

...that is what real love is.

It has nothing to do with sex, money, what they can give you, what they can do for you.  It's about being friends, being able to have a conversation with them, knowing they will always be there to listen, giving them 110% of your trust because you know they won't betray you and a million other things I can't even begin to explain.

All I'm saying is that if you ever get the chance to TRULY have that kind of love in your life, don't ever let it go.  Even if it doesn't work out, it doesn't mean you should run out and betray your own heart to just not be alone.  Live by your own beliefs about what love is to you and never give up on that.  It's one of the biggest parts of what makes us who we are.

Never betray yourself for a lie.  Never base the thought of "love" on what you see on television or movies, you have to be grown up enough to know this examples are not real life.  Hopefully you are all smarter than that.

If anyone needed proof that I'm totally a girl (albeit still a tomboy haha), I think this is it.

Sooo fucking tired. >.<

The ONE time I actually wanna sleep (only because I'm sick!!) and I have to wait up so I can get a ride to get my errands taken care of.

Balls.

I just wanna sleep the rest of the day away since I already lost my day off for this week.  I have nothing to look forward to except a shitty weekend of not only being short-handed, but having to train yet another influx of noobs that I am 99.9% sure won't even make it 30 days.  Which means I will be training again by the time I'm done with the ones who actually make it through.

Believe me, training with me is no joke.

You know how many of the people who have been at this restaurant for a while don't like me simply because they feel I make them look bad? I'm sorry my daddy gave me a work ethic and yours didn't, but I fail to see how your laziness is my issue.  I also fail to see why these new kids should be taught your bad habits when I can teach them the right way.

The first thing I learned when I started working (from my dad) was that it doesn't matter if you are getting paid $5.00 an hour or $500.00 an hour, you still put forward your best effort.  Otherwise, stop taking the space from someone who is willing to give their all to the job in order to get their money.

I personally love the fact that I know my not being there would have a severely negative impact because I do my best every minute of every day I'm at work, no matter how I'm feeling, emotionally or physically.  I'm proud of the fact that I'm highly counted upon to get shit done.

Even if my job isn't the best, I still take a lot of pride in a job well done, because I know I did my best.

What can I say, my dad is awesome :D

So hopefully I can get a few hours of sleep because goodness knows I really fucking need it.

I also have a letter to write to one of my fellow Knuckleheads (hehe), which I will get out in the mail tomorrow.  Gotta actually go out to the post office and buy some damn stamps!! I don't even remember the last time I did that.

It's gonna be awesome.

Killing time right now, still got like an hour to wait.  Need to find my flash drive that has my other blog loaded onto it so I can merge it with this one, but too lazy and unmotivated right now.  Hell, I'm just writing this to try and stay awake.

When I get home from work tonight, I am passing the fuck out.  I have to because I have to stay up Saturday night after work to try and get this damn homework caught up.  So far behind now it's ridiculous and I'm running out of time to get caught up.  Can't let my GPA go down, completely unacceptable.

Better make a list of my assignments, it will be easier for me to study and shit while I'm at work that way.  Any of my friends from school can tell you I'm the queen of making deadlines and pulling out perfect grades.

They will tell you because they hate me for it. >:)

Cheers!!

So...

I joined this group on FB last week (since I live there and all) called "Knuckleheads 4 Life" and it has been a surprising pleasant experience.  For those who have known me long enough and know how reclusive and anti-social I normally am, they might be shocked I was having anything to do with something like that.

I know most won't understand the 'knucklehead' reference, so let me explain real quick like. It's basically a group of literally the most hard-core Five Finger Death Punch fans in existence.  People are very open and friendly there and treat each other like family, through good and bad.  I've seen members helping out other members just by listening, some give advice, but mostly it's just someplace to have fun.

And we do.

There is talk of doing a pen pal type deal, an idea that I'm honestly into.  Kinda get back to talking to people on a more personal level.  Getting mail (that isn't bills) is awesome!!  Someone even mentioned sending postcards, so the people we wrote to would have pictures of the places other members were from.  I think if I start writing people I will send along actual photographs, just because it's more personal that way.

Should make for some interesting communication, eh?

I REALLY need to get some fucking homework done, but there won't be any of that tonight.  I'm so far behind right now it's getting ridiculous.  Work has been monopolizing so much of my time I can barely see straight.

AND I picked up an extra 12 hour shift tomorrow on top of that....yay me...

In case you didn't pick that up....sarcasm...

So since I'm getting close to the deadline on one of my classes (only 2 1/2 weeks to go >.<), looks like there will be no sleep this weekend, but that's really nothing new.  Just means it will be homework time instead of movie/gaming time.

Fuck...

I haven't even barely been able to play my damn game because of my current workload, which pisses me off more than anyone knows.  I LOVE my game and miss my gaming family more than you can imagine.  They have been a monumental part of my life for almost 5 years now and not spending time with them hurts.

Blehhhh...

That's life I guess, so I try not to complain too much.  It'll all balance out soon enough.  Especially if I don't sleep this weekend and get all my homework caught up.  Maybe I will get an day off sometime this weekend since working tomorrow is going to give me like 10 hours of overtime, and goodness gracious, they HATE paying any of us overtime.  It's mostly me that gets it, since I'm literally one of only two people who is ever willing to cover a shift.

So I decided to add my previous blog onto this one, should be done in the next day or so.  I wasn't going to (for reasons mentioned previously) but decided I should since I have a strict rule about never editing myself.  Would be kind of hypocritical to keep the old blog hidden, eh?

Well, off to finish dinner and then nap time, gotta be at work at 3pm tomorrow.  Yeah, I know that's late as hell for most of you but for me it's early as fucking hell.

Cheers!!

...and so it ends...for now

Finally another long shitty weekend of work is done.

Sitting here catching up on wrestling with the roomie, gonna try and get some homework done while I'm sitting here.  Been seriously slacking on that, having a hard time staying motivated for some reason.  Kinda having mixed feelings at the moment about my career choice.  Not that I think it was necessarily a bad choice, just don't know if it's what I really want to do.  It's important I figure it out quick, but even if I change track, it won't be that big of a deal.  Some of the classes I would need to take toward a different career will already be taken care of, as it still has to do with computers.

Dunno yet....indecision is a bitch sometimes.

Today was a pretty mellow day at work, got done way ahead of time, which is fairly unusual.  It was nice to be the first one done for once.  Hell, I even did parts of my co-workers chores (totally don't mind, us weekend closers ALWAYS help each other out) so we didn't have to be there until almost 4am again.

Tomorrow (later today, whateva) I have to finish catching up on my late homework (so much of it -.-), go grocery shopping and clean up the apartment. Tuesday some of my friends are coming over for dinner, should be a nice relaxing night with good people.

Weather is just the way I like it right now.  Oddly enough, it's not cold during the day, the weather is ridiculously perfect, but at night...cold as all hell.  I personally love it though, winter is my favorite season.

Yeah, I'm strange like that.

I'm cool with it.

*sigh* Off to do homework.  More later today.

Today was kind of a fail...

But only because I didn't really get anything done today.

No homework, didn't even log onto my game. Not really feeling too hot the last couple of days, probably because I'm on the verge of getting sick.  Always makes me kinda bleh, but it's probably the only time I get any sleep!!

Been surfing the web and not much else.  Watched some wrestling with the roommate, cancelled our Netflix because they fucked up our account for the second month in a row.  Will probably reactivate it at some point in the next couple of weeks.

I'm the most stubborn motherfucker you will ever meet.

Besides the fact that I'm such a potty mouth of course :p

I think I'm gonna look for a second job as well.  Not that I really need one, but it would be nice to have the extra money for when I wanna go do shit like I used to be able to.  It was so hard to explain to people when I used to always have two jobs back in the day that it was not out of necessity, I just like to enjoy my life and do fun stuff.

Fun stuff = cash flow.  True story.

If I had the extra job and the extra cash, I wouldn't have missed out on the last date of the Trespass tour and seeing 5FDP for the second time this year at the end of August.  I wouldn't be missing the WWE event that is coming to town today.  Can't believe I'm missing that, especially because my favorite wrestler ever, CM Punk, is gonna be there.

Balls -.-

There is also the fact that I wouldn't have had to wait an extra couple of weeks to get my laptop.  Yeah, I know....blah blah fucking blah, right?

Damn skippy, this is my page to bitch, complain, share and hopefully mostly make you laugh...at the very least, crack a smile ;)

Anyway, after a long night of doing nothing, I will probably surf the web a little longer, maybe get motivated enough to do some more work on this blog, then it's nap time, gotta a long weekend of work/homework ahead of me. Fuck sakes.

Cheers all :D

Boorrreeddddd....

I shouldn't be though.

I have homework that needs to get done, yet I can't get myself motivated enough to log on to the school website and do it.

I kinda want to play my game, but then there is the guilt that I should be doing homework.

I've been messing about on Facebook for like an hour and updating myself on wrestling news (yes, that is important as well).

Was gonna watch some Netflix, but it's down for maintenance.

Now what the fuck am I supposed to do.  I suppose I could work on getting this blog put together the way I want, but it's more work than I want to do right now.

I'm not gonna lie....I'm straight lazy today, don't wanna do nothin'.

So I'm gonna go check and see if Netflix is up again yet, then I'm going to log onto classes and pretend like I'm gonna do some homework.  Maybe in a couple of hours I may actually get something done!

Probably back later.

I want someone to tell me when it happened.

The exact moment if possible, but I doubt that it is.

When the FUCK did people lose their sense of right and wrong?  When did people decide it wasn't worth being civil to strangers, especially those who work in a customer service based job?

Do these people REALLY think they're better than everyone else?

Unfortunately, they do.

While I try and find the humor in most situations, especially when it comes to work, it doesn't always happen the way I want it to.  Having worked in the service industry for many years now, at one point about 2 or 3 years ago, I thought I had seen all the nonsense that was possible to see from customers.

Or "guests", as my current manager Steve (the whitest man on the planet, no lie) likes to refer to them...

...guests my ass. In my world, people I call guests know how to act right, in public and out of it.

Swear to fuck, some of these people have obviously had NO home training.  Nothing an ass whooping or two wouldn't have resolved, but it's too damn late now, eh?

I've had every insult in the book thrown my way over the years, too bad for the people throwing them I'm a great catcher and an even better pitcher.

Mistake number 1 assholes...just because we work fast food, customer service or any of the variety of shit minimum wage jobs does NOT make us stupid or incapable.  It makes us realistic about doing what we need to do to pay the bills.  You will also find the majority of us work ourselves to the bone in these places because we have far too much pride to take a handout we don't really need, especially when it would take it away from someone who does.  I'm extremely proud of the fact that I have been working literally since I was 12 years old and everything I have ever bought/owned I have worked my ass off to get and that I've always been able to take care of myself.

So for those who sit there and cry about not being able to get a job...someone is always hiring.  It may not be your dream job, but if it pays the bills and puts food in your mouth, what the fuck could you possibly have to complain about??

There is also those on the other side of the coin as well that do work. You know what I think of most (not all) of them?  Those who think they are better than myself and my co-workers because they don't have to do our job.

Nothing more than self-righteous fuck sticks who think they rule the world because they make a dollar or two more an hour than we do.  Please...

Like the bitch who came through the drive-thru a couple of weeks ago.  I meant to relay this story then, but I got sucked into video games and homework and forgot about it until now.

She came through with her daughter and as is typical of most people that roll through (at a snail's pace so then we have to listen to managers bitch about their "timer"...fuck that timer!!), they were ordering in the most idiotic way possible...

"Can I get a JBC...and a small fry...and another JBC....another small fry....a Crispy Chicken..."

You get the point.

Anyhow, this is how this woman was ordering her food, throwing in a couple of root beer floats for good measure, but the way she ordered it, we weren't sure if she wanted one or two.  So when our regular weekend drive-thru cashier Miss Rose asked her which it was to clarify her order, that asshole got all snotty and yelled into the speaker...

"TWO....ONE...TWO!!!!"

We proceeded to do what we always do, as we all are wearing headsets.  We finished making the order, bagged it, and then gathered around the drive-thru window like a fucking pack of wolves.  As I am the resident comedian in this place, I can make damn near anything funny, I busted one on this lady and good, because we haven't seen her since.  I said what I did for two reasons. The main one was that I didn't want Miss Rose to get into trouble (again) for mouthing off to this bitch and two the spark of humor hit me dead on with this one and I just couldn't in good conscience let it go to waste.

So after Miss Rose asked them if they wanted a drink carrier for their floats, which they emphatically and rudely refused, she handed them out their bags of food then proceeded to hand out the floats.  As she was doing this...

First float gets handed out the window and all anyone hears is...

"One root beer float...ah ah ah!!"  What can I say, I'm a genius! ^_^

The second one goes out and it's like a chorus, because now you have five people...

"TWO ROOT BEER FLOATS...AH AH AH!!!"

Take that Sesame Street burn bitches!!!!


I really have to remember to be careful with that shit, because Miss Rose has a bad heart, which I forget sometimes and I really don't want her to stroke out on my account, though she would go out with a big shit eating grin on her face.

I don't always get to apply this humor though.  Most of my time with unruly customers is spent resisting the urge to reach over the counter/through the window to punch a motherfucker.  For as long as I've been doing this, I have to say this is the worst restaurant I've ever worked at.  Not because of the company or because they don't pay me well enough, but just because the constant influx of shitty, trashy customers is constant in ways that I have never seen before.

So to all of those who are reading this that have been in my place or currently are, I will say this to you the same way I say it to the young ones that work with me.  Since they look up to me (still haven't figured out why that is) I use it to my advantage and tell them to stay in school/go back to school/get into school.   Fast food/customer service is nothing to make a career out of unless you literally have no motivation or desire to do anything else

And to all of you who think that is our job to:

1....clean up after you because you are a lazy slob who can't be bothered to hold something that probably weighs no more than a few ounces, even with trash on it, to one of the multiple trash cans that are in EVERY fast food restaurant on your way out the door, I'll let you in on a little secret.

IT'S NOT!!

The only thing that happens when you do this is that we pretty much instantly start talking shit about you when your gone.  Oh, and guess what else?? So are the other customers in the restaurant.  You have no idea how often we are approached by your fellow consumers just to be told nothing more than "those disgusting people at the table left a mess, we made sure to clean ours up, you have enough to do."  Which is exactly correct.  The other thing that happens is you leave everyone else with this impression...

If you are that much of a pig in public...I can't even imagine how bad your home is >.<

2....put up with your shit because the 'customer is always right'.  Wrong again fuckhead.

That is so far from the case that it's literally not even funny.  While most people can get away with this attitude and get what they want, I'm here to tell you...actually I'm here to DARE you to do that where I work now.  We can't even keep managers in that place because of the fact that you got some downright roughneck bitches running this place from the crew level.  We care about our job on a level where we want to be better than the other stores in our district (and are), but not enough about it to go out of our way to be nice to assholes in order to not be fired.  I can tolerate anything and be nice to the biggest asshole if the need arises, but I draw the line at name calling. You call me a bitch or the like, and you will see that part of me, job be damned.

Trust, you don't ever want to see that side of me.  People that have seen just an inkling have said they never ever want to see me go full blown.

They don't.

3....give you what you want just because you want it?  Fuck off.  It's not my fault you didn't read your coupon right.  Some asshead came in today and tried to tell one of the managers I was rude to him because I had to spell it out for him in front of other customers why his food was discounted the way it was, and that I wasn't handing him anything else that he hadn't paid for, no matter how loud he got.  Too bad their was another manager that was out of his sight who heard the whole exchange and verified the fact that I had not been rude at all.  Maybe being loud works for you in other aspects of your life but not here.  I can outdo you on being loud any day of the week, believe it.

4....read you the entire menu board and quote every price on it, you are very sorely mistaken.  Seriously, what the fuck do you think that damn menu board is for anyway? Fucking decoration??
I also love when someone asks you what is on almost every sandwich, then orders one plain. Motherfucker you knew you didn't want anything on it, just tell us!!!

5....be patient when you are clogging up our drive-thru.  For some odd reason, most fast food restaurants run on a timer (stupid as fuck, admittedly) and people know this. YET, they will still roll through the drive-thru, state they need a few minutes and after making us wait for 3 or 4 minutes (an absolute eternity when you work off a timer), you only order a $1 chicken sandwich and a water???

I seriously hope you fucking choke on that sandwich.

Now we have the 8 cars behind you that were waiting for you to finish your fucking phone call (another rant for another day) so you can order a $1 worth of food while every car behind you orders at least $20-$25 each.  Timer in the toilet people.

Am I seriously the only one who KNOWS what I want when I go to a particular restaurant?

If I go to Jack's, it's because I want tacos.  If I go to Taco Bell, it's because I want steak gorditas and nachos.  If I go to McD's, it's because I want nuggets and fries.  If I go to Wendy's...

...it's because I'm going to work :-p

Point is, people need to learn how to behave again in public. Man, don't these people ever watch movies or television?  Ryan Reynolds said it best...

"Don't fuck with the people that serve your food!"  Seriously, does no one even consider that?

Those of us who work to help/serve you are tired of your shit, and believe me I have a plan to attempt to remedy the situation.  In this day and age of modern technology and social media, apparently one only needs a camera/phone with video capabilities and a YouTube account.

Watch out motherfuckers....we comin' for ya!!!

Sitting here trying to decide what to do next.

Go to work. Done.

Spent a bit of time on Skyrim, took a shower, just got finished studying for a couple of hours.  Checked in to my FB for like the billionth time since I got home. Yes, I am a full blown Facebook whore.

It occupies enough of my time that I don't get bored.  Besides, it's how I keep track of my friends and their shenanigans and how they keep track of me, since I refuse to have a phone.

That will change before the end of the year, but for now, I'm enjoying the peace and quiet.

I have a lot of work I want to put into this blog and I have the time to do it now, but I'm not gonna work on it RIGHT now.

I think I have to put a little work into GW2 before I take my nap.  Then up to study again and write a couple of papers.  It's just a matter of whether that studying will get done before more gaming or after.  It is my day off after all...my last day off before another shitty weekend at work.  Which means the soonest I will see my gaming family again would be next Monday....

Guess I just answered my own question about what will be taking priority later this afternoon!!

No gaming tonight.

Sitting here watching "King of the Hill" on Netflix until I pass out, work tomorrow.  Thank goodness it's my Friday. Especially after today's incident.

I am pretty tolerant when it comes to rude behavior from customers.  My normal view on things is that none of the people that filter in and out of my job, even regular customers, don't know me, nor will they ever.  Do I care what their opinion of me is?

Absolutely, positively...hell no.

So after listening to today's douchebag swear at me and call me names over fries that the CASHIER was not supposed to have bagged up yet as his sandwiches were not ready, that I had every intention of replacing once his food was done, I just got fed up.  Even after being berated by this moron after telling the cashier to make sure she got the old fries and put them in waste, as management is very strict about watching food cost, I still tried to keep quiet.  It was when he leaned over the counter and accused me of implying he was trying to get free food, I made only one statement to this person.  I can't call him a man because REAL men don't act like that, and I won't call him a boy either because that is an insult to the younger generation of future men who possibly haven't been taught you don't speak to people in that manner.

The statement I made was this...in these exact words...

"I think it's really sad that your life is so bad that you have nothing better to do with your time than to harass fast food workers over french fries. I really am sad for you....I'm sorry."

Guess he didn't like that too much hahahahahaha

So he continued to swear at me and basically made an ass of himself in front of a restaurant full of customers, which I continued to ignore.  Oddly enough, I have discovered over the years that when you ignore someone who is trying to harass you, they just get more angry.

I'm not gonna lie, I think it's fantastic when that happens.

He finally decided to leave and so I figured the whole episode was over.  Besides, I had already moved on as I had customers who needed to be helped.  While I was handing out the next couple of orders, the customers who I spoke to that had witnessed everything told me that they were surprised about how calm I was during all of it and they would have handled things a lot more violently than they did. Funny as hell.  One of my regulars I told...

"I'm not allowed to do that anymore, I can't risk my financial aid!!" True story.

About 3 or 4 minutes passed and that son of a bitch came back.  He went out of his way to look for the manager, which was Willie tonight, and asked him for a plastic bag.  He then stated he hadn't asked for one before he left because "those two bitches at the front counter probably wouldn't have given me one."

That's when it happened...SNAP!!

Call me all the names you want in the world, say whatever you will, believe me, I've been up against bigger and badder than you, nothing you will do can phase me.

Treat any of my friends or family like that though, consider yourself fucked.

So I turned to my cashier, my friend Elida and said, "Man, he (Willie) better get the motherfucker out of here, someone's about to get fucked up.  If he think I can't beat a dude's ass, he's about to find out the truth about that!"

To which King Douche then states, "See??? She just called me a motherfucker!! You let people like that work here???"

To which I stated, "YEAH, they do, and guess what?? I will be back here the next time you come back and I'm gonna make sure EVERYONE else who works here knows exactly who you are.  Let's see how the service you get is gonna be after that!"

Fucking asshole.

I'm sorry if your life sucks, but I honestly could give two fucks.  I save my sympathy for the people who deserve it.  For the people who have been through unimaginable shit and survived, even more so for the people who didn't make it.  As much shit as I've been through in this first part of my life, I always keep this perspective in mind...

I was lucky enough to be born strong and with good sense.  I survived far many more situations in life than I ought to have had to, but you know what? As horrendous as my life was, there are so many more who had it even worse and if they were able to survive it, many of them didn't end up as lucky as me.  I've been taking care of my self for what seems like forever, I work, I take care of all my needs on my own and I try every day to lead by example.  I'm a worst case scenario that was repaired as well as can be expected.  It's work to wake up and attempt to be normal every damn day of my life, but I deal with and do my best to appreciate that fact that I am alive at all.

It's the best I can do.

For those who think it's okay to shit on people, whether you know them or not, over something as petty as french fries or anything else equally petty I have only one thing to say to you.

Go..

Fuck...

Yourself...

...

Please!!

Hopefully tomorrow will not be so obnoxious.  I have homework to do and gaming to catch up on!!

Cheers! :)

Man, you take a quarter off from school...

Totally forgot how much having the responsibility of school and homework can interfere in the things you enjoy most.  In my case, it's gaming.  Now that the game I have been waiting so long for is here and I'm now officially playing it, it really sucks that school just HAD to start a mere two days after I got my laptop.

I was just happily playing when I that gnawing thought in the back of my head reminded me that I had RESPONSIBILITY again and that I needed to do my damn schoolwork.  The benefit of having a regular schedule at work is you know exactly how much time you have to dedicate to all the obligations in your life, whatever they may be.  In my case, since I fucked off my other two days off this week in game, I now need to dedicate however much time necessary to complete my assignments for the week.  Work is not due until 9pm Sunday night, but as I work a ridiculous amount of hours on the weekend in order to keep my 3 days off, I won't have the time, nor will I want to do homework or studying after work. 

So here I am.  Getting ready to write the obligatory "tell your teacher a little something about yourself" paper, which must be done before I can start receiving my assignments. 

What am I, in kindergarten??

Well, the faster I get that done, as it is very early (in my world), I should still have time to put in 3 or 4 more hours of gaming before my pre-work nap. 

Sleep is for suckers... >:-D

Day three.

This is officially my first full day with my new love.  I don't know if I can say it really counts as that, as this is my first full day with my new piece of electronic joy and happiness since I've been working pretty much non-stop since Friday and this last hour has been the first interrupted time I've had to play with it.

I've already checked into classes, with the intention of working on homework most of tomorrow.  Classes should be fairly easy this quarter, though they usually are for me....as long as they are interesting.  I tend to have a harder time paying attention when the learning is TOO easy.  Sad, eh?

Currently loading all my music into my baby, though I know it's going to take at least the next couple of weeks to complete, due to the immensity of my music collection and the fact that it is all being ripped from CD's.  Yes, I still buy music old school like.  I'm all about artist support.

I'm close to done with that though, as I have a VERY long night of GW2 ahead of me.

I guess more accurate would be the rest of the night slated for GW2.

Good thing I don't work tomorrow!!!

So in love!!! ^_^

With my new fucking laptop that is!!!!

MUAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

It would be the same reaction if it was a brand new desktop that performed as well as this damn thing does, but it's a laptop....and now I can do this, homework, game and whore myself on Facebook from the convenience of my bed.

Though I don't really sleep much, my bed is comfortable as hell and still my favorite place to spend my time :-D

Currently downloading the Sims 3 onto this bad boy. I've had the game for awhile, but due to the fact that my desktop is old and wasn't really designed for gaming, Sims 3 didn't really work well on it. I was lucky if I could get a good 5-6 minutes in the game before it froze or reset my computer.  Now on the rare occasions I need to take a break from playing GW2 (which probably won't be until sometime next year hahaha), I will have a practically brand new game (for me) to play.

/win

I also intend on downloading Skyrim onto this thing too, since I have a copy for PC I got from my buddy Jason.

And sometime tomorrow when I finally get home from work, I have to remember to download Microsoft Office, because I will need to have MS Word in order to do my fucking homework. Bleehhhh... Not happy about school starting again only because it will be cutting into my gaming time.

I have waited so damn long as it is!!! Guild Wars 2 was supposedly going to be out last November, but all of us expected that wasn't really going to be the case.  Waited and waited VERY impatiently for a release date, and finally got one...August 28th we finally get our game!!

Then my PC dies, I can't afford to replace it in a timely enough manner to be able to participate in all the beta weekends for my game.

/fail

Then my BFFF, my bestest friend in the whole damn world surprised me by buying me my copy of the game.  That was seriously like the best day ever!!  I originally estimated I would have enough money in order to buy my new PC approximately 2 weeks before release of the game.  So even though I had missed the betas, at least I would get to be in on the 3 day head start, right?  Turns out I was still a little short of what I needed and had to wait another month.

/fail

 Now that month is officially over and I sit here grinning like an idiot while I write this on my beautiful piece of electronic heaven.  Now that this game has finished downloading....

...time to get back to it.

Sleep is for suckers mode has officially been started...

Sooooo frustrated right now!!!

So yeah...

Computer is not working properly and is such a pain to get onto I haven't been bothering much.  This is only troublesome due to my horrendous Facebook addiction.  Since it's basically how I stay connected to the world AND assure my friends that I am indeed still alive, not being there usually garners me many messages of...

"WTF?? Where the hell are you??"

For fucks sake, does it really matter?

Anyone who has been friends with me long enough should know by now how reclusive I am.  It's not that I don't care or I don't want to talk to you, it's just me, you should all be used to it!!! Probably doesn't help that my phone has been off for a year now (just realized that) and it is nearly impossible to contact me. Having it turned back on is one of several things I intend to take care of before the year is out.  Also high on my priority list is getting a new passport, as it has been AGES since I have been back "home" to Vancouver.  It's the one place I always felt I was meant to be and where I've always been happiest.

I will be getting my new laptop in about a week and a half, which means a ridiculous amount of time will be spent here writing....that is between my massive sessions of GW2 and equally massive sessions of fucking homework. Just a means to an end. Proper job (that isn't Wendy's or any other type of customer service) means that I will be able to set up my own retirement fund and also be able to make sure my father is taken care of in his.  Good thing I don't want for much, eh??

So even though I have been non-existent in the last couple of weeks, believe me, that will change, to the point of making everyone nauseous I'm sure... ;-)

Too fucking hot...

So I finally have a day off.

...and it's too damn hot to do anything!!

Well, it's not scorching or anything like when I was living in Omaha, but it's still warm enough to make me incredibly lazy.

I keep going back and forth with myself about whether I want to game or just continue watching Netflix but continue to come to no real decision, so I just go lay back down and frown at my ceiling.  With time differences and the fact that we are now so close to launch date for our game, I doubt any of my guildies are even logged on at the moment.  I'm sure we'll be inseparable once again soon enough, but for now....

...nothing much in game going on. Booooooooo....

As it is, I'm gonna have to wait an extra couple of weeks to even get on the game, as I need to earn a little more cash towards my new computer, but since I've waited this long, a couple more weeks won't kill me.  That is of course assuming that I don't constantly view posts or get messages on FB from my friends about how EPIC the game is and the "where the hell are you??" notes.  That would suck.

I may try to finally install the awesome graphics card I got for Xmas a couple of years ago from my BFFF, as I know a hell of a lot more about computers than I did when I received it.  Hopefully I won't break my shit! Hahaha.

Guess we'll all know what happened if I don't write anything for a while. Would have written more this weekend if it wasn't for the fact I spent so much damn time at work.  Saturday night was drunk moron day in the drive-thru, with the best statement of the night coming from a woman who was more than old enough to know better that to be out drunk driving in Lakewood.  Asked her if we could take her order and the first words out of her mouth were "You guys are actually open! I can't believe it!"

The place was lit up like fucking Christmas AND there is a huge sign on the window that says "Open 'til 2am daily!".  It was not even midnight when she came through...

Besides, if you thought we weren't open, why the fuck did you attempt rolling through to order food??

And everyone wonders why I love people so much.

I can't wait until I'm done with school.

I need to find a movie to watch or something while I figure out something more interesting to write about.  Had some ideas in my head about some stuff, but kinda lost it after a very long weekend, sure it will come back to me eventually.

For now, I'm off!!

It was a long day today.

Work was just a reminder of why it was a good decision (not really mine) to go back to school.  My distaste for the general public continues to grow on a daily basis.

It's not everyone.  I still meet nice people on occasion and I have a lot of regular customers that I'm glad to see, as I know they will not give me hassle.  There are just things I hear or see everyday that have always gotten on my nerves and as time marches on, they irritate the shit out of me more and more. 

One of the biggest? People feeding their children what basically equates to unhealthy crap after midnight. I ended up stuck at work longer than I was supposed to be (as usual) and the last thing I heard over my headset before I chucked it onto the table in disgust was a parent ordering 2 kid's meals for her children....at 12:45 in the a.m.  Seriously...what the FUCK?? Why are your children not sleeping??  Not only are they still awake at this time, you are barely feeding them dinner, at Wendy's, this late at night? And people wonder why childhood obesity is running rampant in our country.

Fucking assholes.

People and their damn cell phones, mobile devices, whatever the fuck they are now.  I swear on my life these people only use their phones AS a phone when it will irritate me the most.  You know, like when they have been standing in line for 10 minutes waiting for me to take their order and they wait until it's their turn before they finally decide to call their family member, buddy, or what have you to say...

"Hey, I'm at Wendy's....you want anything?"  The best part? When they start reading off the whole menu over the phone and the 15 people behind them who already know what they want are frowning at ME like I'm the one who is being discourteous.  

If I was allowed to put hands on some of these people I swear they would have those fancy little pieces of plastic crammed straight up their ass.

Little less than two years until graduation and I am DONE with customer service for-fucking-ever. 

I remember the days when I thought I could do these jobs forever....long gone.

They keep trying to get me to do management and I keep telling them "no spank you" because I enjoy having a LIFE.  It may not be much of one, considering that I spend what time I have gaming, watching movies, listening to music and school, but it's mine and my time is precious dammit!!

Even though I just got home from that pit 2 hours ago, I must now try to take a nap because I need to be back there in about 7 hours.  Have to be ready to go because IMPORTANT people (saarccassmmm) are going to be hanging out there most of the day tomorrow watching to see how we "operate".  

It's fast food assholes, we aren't fucking saving lives.  If anything, we are contributing to a quicker demise for some of them.  10 hours in that place tomorrow (later today, whatever) will hopefully garner at least one interesting story. 

We shall have to see now, won't we?? :-D

A New Beginning

Sometimes I wonder what it would like to be normal.

Then I laugh hysterically and remember I wasn't meant to be like everyone else.  I also realize that is just the way I like it.

I rarely sleep. Sleep is for dead people!!

I'm more capable of being myself behind this keyboard than I am when I'm face to face with people.  I have a general distrust for most of existence, it's just easier to keep my mouth shut when I'm outside the four walls of my room.

I love most of my family and all my friends, but still tend to keep my distance.  Trusting the right people has never been my strong point in life.  What can I say, I'm a sucker like that.  Luckily I have one of the most awesome groups of friends in the world and they are willing to put up with my eccentricities because they love me.

I miss this part of my life more than I realized.  Doing this writing thing I mean.  It was the way I used to express myself best and I was damn good at it.  I had a pretty good following and even had offers to be sponsored and paid to do it.

Things happened, I gave up a lot of stuff I shouldn't have and now here we are. It's like....fuck sakes....a little over 3 years later and I believe I might be ready to take my life back.  To some degree at least.

It's time to concentrate on the few things I have left that make ME happy.

Number 1 is this blog.  While my original still exists, I will no longer add to it.  I may go back for occasional notes and sections of writings that deserve rehashing, but other than that, I will likely not lead people to it.  Too many memories of things I don't want to deal with and frankly toward the end, too much fucking whining.

Not really cool with that...

Major number 2, and just as important as number 1, is my gaming.  Yes, I'm a gamer...MASSIVE gamer to be more precise.  As one who dealt with major trauma during actual childhood and who had to be an adult by age 7, I have regressed.  I am currently living through my missed childhood and will likely continue to do so until they put me out to pasture.  By that I mean my friends who have been left in charge of my "end of life" rituals of nonsense put my ashes in a Folger's can and attempt to toss me out to sea 'Lebowski style'.

My apologies to whomever gets the blow back.

So now I take back what I can of my life and live for no one but myself and fuck whoever can't deal with that.  My life is about my writing, my gaming, listening to my music, going to concerts, travelling, and the variety of little things that make me happy.  To my family (sister, brothers, my niece, my pops, my dad, my mama) and friends that I adore and would give my life's blood for, I will always be here for all and any of you when you need me.

So for those who happen upon this, those I lead here, etc, be prepared.  I swear like a truck driver (thanks Dad), share the music I love, post random shit and funny stories, rant when the need arises, and do my best to entertain.

After all, isn't there some saying about "sharing is caring", or some such shit??