23 October 2012

Love is supposed to be a wonderful thing, right?

Unfortunately, that is not always the case.

Sometimes, to prove how much you love something or someone, you have to let it go...

...figuratively speaking that is.

See, the deal is, for a lot of us, love is not what we thought it was going to be.

For some, like my grandparents and even friends of mine, it happens right away.  You meet the person that was intended for you, the bond is immediate and nothing can separate two people whose hearts were meant for each other.

On the other side of the coin, you eventually meet the person you were intended for, but sometimes the bond you thought would always keep you together is broken.  It may not have even been the fault of either party, but outside interference, unfortunate circumstance or what have you.

That is when you figure out what true love really is.

When every waking thought is about that other person, when your only real concern is whether or not they are okay, when you hear their voice or see their face and it just brings on that rush of emotion, you know.

When you would give everything of yourself  to ensure the happiness of that person, no matter the consequence to yourself, you know.

When they are the first thought in your head when you wake up and the last before you go to bed, even when you haven't seen or spoken to them for an extended period of time, it doesn't matter.

When you would rather spend the rest of your life alone because you know you could not live the lie of pretending to love someone else, knowing that one person owns all the love in your heart that you have to give....

...that is what real love is.

It has nothing to do with sex, money, what they can give you, what they can do for you.  It's about being friends, being able to have a conversation with them, knowing they will always be there to listen, giving them 110% of your trust because you know they won't betray you and a million other things I can't even begin to explain.

All I'm saying is that if you ever get the chance to TRULY have that kind of love in your life, don't ever let it go.  Even if it doesn't work out, it doesn't mean you should run out and betray your own heart to just not be alone.  Live by your own beliefs about what love is to you and never give up on that.  It's one of the biggest parts of what makes us who we are.

Never betray yourself for a lie.  Never base the thought of "love" on what you see on television or movies, you have to be grown up enough to know this examples are not real life.  Hopefully you are all smarter than that.

If anyone needed proof that I'm totally a girl (albeit still a tomboy haha), I think this is it.

12 October 2012

Sooo fucking tired. >.<

The ONE time I actually wanna sleep (only because I'm sick!!) and I have to wait up so I can get a ride to get my errands taken care of.

Balls.

I just wanna sleep the rest of the day away since I already lost my day off for this week.  I have nothing to look forward to except a shitty weekend of not only being short-handed, but having to train yet another influx of noobs that I am 99.9% sure won't even make it 30 days.  Which means I will be training again by the time I'm done with the ones who actually make it through.

Believe me, training with me is no joke.

You know how many of the people who have been at this restaurant for a while don't like me simply because they feel I make them look bad? I'm sorry my daddy gave me a work ethic and yours didn't, but I fail to see how your laziness is my issue.  I also fail to see why these new kids should be taught your bad habits when I can teach them the right way.

The first thing I learned when I started working (from my dad) was that it doesn't matter if you are getting paid $5.00 an hour or $500.00 an hour, you still put forward your best effort.  Otherwise, stop taking the space from someone who is willing to give their all to the job in order to get their money.

I personally love the fact that I know my not being there would have a severely negative impact because I do my best every minute of every day I'm at work, no matter how I'm feeling, emotionally or physically.  I'm proud of the fact that I'm highly counted upon to get shit done.

Even if my job isn't the best, I still take a lot of pride in a job well done, because I know I did my best.

What can I say, my dad is awesome :D

So hopefully I can get a few hours of sleep because goodness knows I really fucking need it.

I also have a letter to write to one of my fellow Knuckleheads (hehe), which I will get out in the mail tomorrow.  Gotta actually go out to the post office and buy some damn stamps!! I don't even remember the last time I did that.

It's gonna be awesome.

Killing time right now, still got like an hour to wait.  Need to find my flash drive that has my other blog loaded onto it so I can merge it with this one, but too lazy and unmotivated right now.  Hell, I'm just writing this to try and stay awake.

When I get home from work tonight, I am passing the fuck out.  I have to because I have to stay up Saturday night after work to try and get this damn homework caught up.  So far behind now it's ridiculous and I'm running out of time to get caught up.  Can't let my GPA go down, completely unacceptable.

Better make a list of my assignments, it will be easier for me to study and shit while I'm at work that way.  Any of my friends from school can tell you I'm the queen of making deadlines and pulling out perfect grades.

They will tell you because they hate me for it. >:)

Cheers!!

11 October 2012

So...

I joined this group on FB last week (since I live there and all) called "Knuckleheads 4 Life" and it has been a surprising pleasant experience.  For those who have known me long enough and know how reclusive and anti-social I normally am, they might be shocked I was having anything to do with something like that.

I know most won't understand the 'knucklehead' reference, so let me explain real quick like. It's basically a group of literally the most hard-core Five Finger Death Punch fans in existence.  People are very open and friendly there and treat each other like family, through good and bad.  I've seen members helping out other members just by listening, some give advice, but mostly it's just someplace to have fun.

And we do.

There is talk of doing a pen pal type deal, an idea that I'm honestly into.  Kinda get back to talking to people on a more personal level.  Getting mail (that isn't bills) is awesome!!  Someone even mentioned sending postcards, so the people we wrote to would have pictures of the places other members were from.  I think if I start writing people I will send along actual photographs, just because it's more personal that way.

Should make for some interesting communication, eh?

I REALLY need to get some fucking homework done, but there won't be any of that tonight.  I'm so far behind right now it's getting ridiculous.  Work has been monopolizing so much of my time I can barely see straight.

AND I picked up an extra 12 hour shift tomorrow on top of that....yay me...

In case you didn't pick that up....sarcasm...

So since I'm getting close to the deadline on one of my classes (only 2 1/2 weeks to go >.<), looks like there will be no sleep this weekend, but that's really nothing new.  Just means it will be homework time instead of movie/gaming time.

Fuck...

I haven't even barely been able to play my damn game because of my current workload, which pisses me off more than anyone knows.  I LOVE my game and miss my gaming family more than you can imagine.  They have been a monumental part of my life for almost 5 years now and not spending time with them hurts.

Blehhhh...

That's life I guess, so I try not to complain too much.  It'll all balance out soon enough.  Especially if I don't sleep this weekend and get all my homework caught up.  Maybe I will get an day off sometime this weekend since working tomorrow is going to give me like 10 hours of overtime, and goodness gracious, they HATE paying any of us overtime.  It's mostly me that gets it, since I'm literally one of only two people who is ever willing to cover a shift.

So I decided to add my previous blog onto this one, should be done in the next day or so.  I wasn't going to (for reasons mentioned previously) but decided I should since I have a strict rule about never editing myself.  Would be kind of hypocritical to keep the old blog hidden, eh?

Well, off to finish dinner and then nap time, gotta be at work at 3pm tomorrow.  Yeah, I know that's late as hell for most of you but for me it's early as fucking hell.

Cheers!!


08 October 2012

...and so it ends...for now

Finally another long shitty weekend of work is done.

Sitting here catching up on wrestling with the roomie, gonna try and get some homework done while I'm sitting here.  Been seriously slacking on that, having a hard time staying motivated for some reason.  Kinda having mixed feelings at the moment about my career choice.  Not that I think it was necessarily a bad choice, just don't know if it's what I really want to do.  It's important I figure it out quick, but even if I change track, it won't be that big of a deal.  Some of the classes I would need to take toward a different career will already be taken care of, as it still has to do with computers.

Dunno yet....indecision is a bitch sometimes.

Today was a pretty mellow day at work, got done way ahead of time, which is fairly unusual.  It was nice to be the first one done for once.  Hell, I even did parts of my co-workers chores (totally don't mind, us weekend closers ALWAYS help each other out) so we didn't have to be there until almost 4am again.

Tomorrow (later today, whateva) I have to finish catching up on my late homework (so much of it -.-), go grocery shopping and clean up the apartment. Tuesday some of my friends are coming over for dinner, should be a nice relaxing night with good people.

Weather is just the way I like it right now.  Oddly enough, it's not cold during the day, the weather is ridiculously perfect, but at night...cold as all hell.  I personally love it though, winter is my favorite season.

Yeah, I'm strange like that.

I'm cool with it.

*sigh* Off to do homework.  More later today.


05 October 2012

Today was kind of a fail...

But only because I didn't really get anything done today.

No homework, didn't even log onto my game. Not really feeling too hot the last couple of days, probably because I'm on the verge of getting sick.  Always makes me kinda bleh, but it's probably the only time I get any sleep!!

Been surfing the web and not much else.  Watched some wrestling with the roommate, cancelled our Netflix because they fucked up our account for the second month in a row.  Will probably reactivate it at some point in the next couple of weeks.

I'm the most stubborn motherfucker you will ever meet.

Besides the fact that I'm such a potty mouth of course :p

I think I'm gonna look for a second job as well.  Not that I really need one, but it would be nice to have the extra money for when I wanna go do shit like I used to be able to.  It was so hard to explain to people when I used to always have two jobs back in the day that it was not out of necessity, I just like to enjoy my life and do fun stuff.

Fun stuff = cash flow.  True story.

If I had the extra job and the extra cash, I wouldn't have missed out on the last date of the Trespass tour and seeing 5FDP for the second time this year at the end of August.  I wouldn't be missing the WWE event that is coming to town today.  Can't believe I'm missing that, especially because my favorite wrestler ever, CM Punk, is gonna be there.

Balls -.-

There is also the fact that I wouldn't have had to wait an extra couple of weeks to get my laptop.  Yeah, I know....blah blah fucking blah, right?

Damn skippy, this is my page to bitch, complain, share and hopefully mostly make you laugh...at the very least, crack a smile ;)

Anyway, after a long night of doing nothing, I will probably surf the web a little longer, maybe get motivated enough to do some more work on this blog, then it's nap time, gotta a long weekend of work/homework ahead of me. Fuck sakes.

Cheers all :D

04 October 2012

Boorrreeddddd....

I shouldn't be though.

I have homework that needs to get done, yet I can't get myself motivated enough to log on to the school website and do it.

I kinda want to play my game, but then there is the guilt that I should be doing homework.

I've been messing about on Facebook for like an hour and updating myself on wrestling news (yes, that is important as well).

Was gonna watch some Netflix, but it's down for maintenance.

Now what the fuck am I supposed to do.  I suppose I could work on getting this blog put together the way I want, but it's more work than I want to do right now.

I'm not gonna lie....I'm straight lazy today, don't wanna do nothin'.

So I'm gonna go check and see if Netflix is up again yet, then I'm going to log onto classes and pretend like I'm gonna do some homework.  Maybe in a couple of hours I may actually get something done!

Probably back later.


I want someone to tell me when it happened.

The exact moment if possible, but I doubt that it is.

When the FUCK did people lose their sense of right and wrong?  When did people decide it wasn't worth being civil to strangers, especially those who work in a customer service based job?

Do these people REALLY think they're better than everyone else?

Unfortunately, they do.

While I try and find the humor in most situations, especially when it comes to work, it doesn't always happen the way I want it to.  Having worked in the service industry for many years now, at one point about 2 or 3 years ago, I thought I had seen all the nonsense that was possible to see from customers.

Or "guests", as my current manager Steve (the whitest man on the planet, no lie) likes to refer to them...

...guests my ass. In my world, people I call guests know how to act right, in public and out of it.

Swear to fuck, some of these people have obviously had NO home training.  Nothing an ass whooping or two wouldn't have resolved, but it's too damn late now, eh?

I've had every insult in the book thrown my way over the years, too bad for the people throwing them I'm a great catcher and an even better pitcher.

Mistake number 1 assholes...just because we work fast food, customer service or any of the variety of shit minimum wage jobs does NOT make us stupid or incapable.  It makes us realistic about doing what we need to do to pay the bills.  You will also find the majority of us work ourselves to the bone in these places because we have far too much pride to take a handout we don't really need, especially when it would take it away from someone who does.  I'm extremely proud of the fact that I have been working literally since I was 12 years old and everything I have ever bought/owned I have worked my ass off to get and that I've always been able to take care of myself.

So for those who sit there and cry about not being able to get a job...someone is always hiring.  It may not be your dream job, but if it pays the bills and puts food in your mouth, what the fuck could you possibly have to complain about??

There is also those on the other side of the coin as well that do work. You know what I think of most (not all) of them?  Those who think they are better than myself and my co-workers because they don't have to do our job.

Nothing more than self-righteous fuck sticks who think they rule the world because they make a dollar or two more an hour than we do.  Please...

Like the bitch who came through the drive-thru a couple of weeks ago.  I meant to relay this story then, but I got sucked into video games and homework and forgot about it until now.

She came through with her daughter and as is typical of most people that roll through (at a snail's pace so then we have to listen to managers bitch about their "timer"...fuck that timer!!), they were ordering in the most idiotic way possible...

"Can I get a JBC...and a small fry...and another JBC....another small fry....a Crispy Chicken..."

You get the point.

Anyhow, this is how this woman was ordering her food, throwing in a couple of root beer floats for good measure, but the way she ordered it, we weren't sure if she wanted one or two.  So when our regular weekend drive-thru cashier Miss Rose asked her which it was to clarify her order, that asshole got all snotty and yelled into the speaker...

"TWO....ONE...TWO!!!!"

We proceeded to do what we always do, as we all are wearing headsets.  We finished making the order, bagged it, and then gathered around the drive-thru window like a fucking pack of wolves.  As I am the resident comedian in this place, I can make damn near anything funny, I busted one on this lady and good, because we haven't seen her since.  I said what I did for two reasons. The main one was that I didn't want Miss Rose to get into trouble (again) for mouthing off to this bitch and two the spark of humor hit me dead on with this one and I just couldn't in good conscience let it go to waste.

So after Miss Rose asked them if they wanted a drink carrier for their floats, which they emphatically and rudely refused, she handed them out their bags of food then proceeded to hand out the floats.  As she was doing this...

First float gets handed out the window and all anyone hears is...

"One root beer float...ah ah ah!!"  What can I say, I'm a genius! ^_^

The second one goes out and it's like a chorus, because now you have five people...

"TWO ROOT BEER FLOATS...AH AH AH!!!"

Take that Sesame Street burn bitches!!!!


I really have to remember to be careful with that shit, because Miss Rose has a bad heart, which I forget sometimes and I really don't want her to stroke out on my account, though she would go out with a big shit eating grin on her face.

I don't always get to apply this humor though.  Most of my time with unruly customers is spent resisting the urge to reach over the counter/through the window to punch a motherfucker.  For as long as I've been doing this, I have to say this is the worst restaurant I've ever worked at.  Not because of the company or because they don't pay me well enough, but just because the constant influx of shitty, trashy customers is constant in ways that I have never seen before.

So to all of those who are reading this that have been in my place or currently are, I will say this to you the same way I say it to the young ones that work with me.  Since they look up to me (still haven't figured out why that is) I use it to my advantage and tell them to stay in school/go back to school/get into school.   Fast food/customer service is nothing to make a career out of unless you literally have no motivation or desire to do anything else

And to all of you who think that is our job to:

1....clean up after you because you are a lazy slob who can't be bothered to hold something that probably weighs no more than a few ounces, even with trash on it, to one of the multiple trash cans that are in EVERY fast food restaurant on your way out the door, I'll let you in on a little secret.

IT'S NOT!!

The only thing that happens when you do this is that we pretty much instantly start talking shit about you when your gone.  Oh, and guess what else?? So are the other customers in the restaurant.  You have no idea how often we are approached by your fellow consumers just to be told nothing more than "those disgusting people at the table left a mess, we made sure to clean ours up, you have enough to do."  Which is exactly correct.  The other thing that happens is you leave everyone else with this impression...

If you are that much of a pig in public...I can't even imagine how bad your home is >.<

2....put up with your shit because the 'customer is always right'.  Wrong again fuckhead.

That is so far from the case that it's literally not even funny.  While most people can get away with this attitude and get what they want, I'm here to tell you...actually I'm here to DARE you to do that where I work now.  We can't even keep managers in that place because of the fact that you got some downright roughneck bitches running this place from the crew level.  We care about our job on a level where we want to be better than the other stores in our district (and are), but not enough about it to go out of our way to be nice to assholes in order to not be fired.  I can tolerate anything and be nice to the biggest asshole if the need arises, but I draw the line at name calling. You call me a bitch or the like, and you will see that part of me, job be damned.

Trust, you don't ever want to see that side of me.  People that have seen just an inkling have said they never ever want to see me go full blown.

They don't.

3....give you what you want just because you want it?  Fuck off.  It's not my fault you didn't read your coupon right.  Some asshead came in today and tried to tell one of the managers I was rude to him because I had to spell it out for him in front of other customers why his food was discounted the way it was, and that I wasn't handing him anything else that he hadn't paid for, no matter how loud he got.  Too bad their was another manager that was out of his sight who heard the whole exchange and verified the fact that I had not been rude at all.  Maybe being loud works for you in other aspects of your life but not here.  I can outdo you on being loud any day of the week, believe it.

4....read you the entire menu board and quote every price on it, you are very sorely mistaken.  Seriously, what the fuck do you think that damn menu board is for anyway? Fucking decoration??
I also love when someone asks you what is on almost every sandwich, then orders one plain. Motherfucker you knew you didn't want anything on it, just tell us!!!

5....be patient when you are clogging up our drive-thru.  For some odd reason, most fast food restaurants run on a timer (stupid as fuck, admittedly) and people know this. YET, they will still roll through the drive-thru, state they need a few minutes and after making us wait for 3 or 4 minutes (an absolute eternity when you work off a timer), you only order a $1 chicken sandwich and a water???

I seriously hope you fucking choke on that sandwich.

Now we have the 8 cars behind you that were waiting for you to finish your fucking phone call (another rant for another day) so you can order a $1 worth of food while every car behind you orders at least $20-$25 each.  Timer in the toilet people.

Am I seriously the only one who KNOWS what I want when I go to a particular restaurant?

If I go to Jack's, it's because I want tacos.  If I go to Taco Bell, it's because I want steak gorditas and nachos.  If I go to McD's, it's because I want nuggets and fries.  If I go to Wendy's...

...it's because I'm going to work :-p

Point is, people need to learn how to behave again in public. Man, don't these people ever watch movies or television?  Ryan Reynolds said it best...

"Don't fuck with the people that serve your food!"  Seriously, does no one even consider that?

Those of us who work to help/serve you are tired of your shit, and believe me I have a plan to attempt to remedy the situation.  In this day and age of modern technology and social media, apparently one only needs a camera/phone with video capabilities and a YouTube account.

Watch out motherfuckers....we comin' for ya!!!