Well, it's time to be off to work now. Yay me.

My day is only getting started, and it honestly seems like just another day of suck ahead.

How could it not? I'm working on Halloween for fucks sake.

Two of my friends who were supposed to be getting married are now broken up. *sighs*

Yeah, don't think today is gonna be a good day at all, though I don't see how it could get much worse.

It's my life though, which means there is a disgusting amount of possibility for calamity.

Happy Halloween all.

So yeah, it's been a few days....sue me.

Sometimes life takes over, even when you don't want it to. Let's get caught up, shall we?

The concert last Saturday was fantastic, I'm so glad I got to go. Not only was it a fun day spent with my brother, but every performance was great, it was a good time I must say.

Sunday...Monday...Tuesday...Wednesday....work...bleh. Some customer who is one of the rudest people I've ever met actually apologized to me on Wednesday night, for his obnoxious rant he went on towards me almost a month ago. I'm sure it had more to do with the fact he was told not to bother to return to the restaurant (almost all the employees refused to help him anymore) than the fact that he was actually sorry, but whatever. Still looking for another job, hopefully I will find one soon.

Yesterday, didn't do anything really. Woke up in the afternoon, as usual. Watched a couple movies, jumped online and into my game for a few hours. More television, about 30 minutes spent with the boyfriend, more gaming, then more television and sleep.

Wash, rinse, repeat...minus the time with the boyfriend. *sighs*

Ever wake up some days, and just feel more like you are an *obligation* than anything else?

That's how I have felt for the last few weeks to be quite honest.

I'm sure it's unfounded, but the feeling won't leave, not really sure why.

Maybe it has to do with this mindset I have of *waiting*...waiting for things to inevitably go wrong, and to have my life go back to complete shit instead of just partially being stuck in it.

If I was ever given a reason to not think like that, maybe I could stop.

Just never had a reason.

Change of plans yet again.

Let my brother know that my ride had fell through, and I wasn't going to be able to make the concert after all.

He's coming to pick me up since he is going as well. I get to go after all!!!

I'm so excited I can't hardly stand it.

No cameras or stuff allowed, which is a bummer. It's okay though, I'm just happy to be going.

Will be back to talk about it when I get home.

I am so fucking tired.

Just walked in the door from work, so busy I didn't even get my break today. It's not like I care because I felt the need to sit on my ass or anything. My break is the time I use to do some of my closing work I can't get done when I'm helping customers. No break...cleaning time = denied!!

The only good thing is I have no work tomorrow. I get to go pick up my paycheck, point and laugh at my friends who DO have to work in that shithole tomorrow, and then spend the next couple of days at home with my sweetie.

Not a bad trade off for a shitty night if you ask me.

I will be going to the movies tomorrow as well though. *Saw 6* is out, and I NEED to see it. Well, my friend Brian and I are actually going, as we just NEED to know if our predictions about certain characters were correct or not. We have been waiting two years to find this out.

Other than that, all my time will be spent at home, hanging out, gaming and the like. Plus, since Halloween is a mere week away now, all the channels are going full blown with the horror movies, something I am totally ecstatic about.

I'm gonna have a good weekend if it kills me dammit. ;)

It's typical.

So much so that I'm already over being upset about it.

Nothing like having plans you made almost 2 months ago being completely blown in an instant.

See, some friends and I were supposed to be going to a concert together this Saturday. It went from 6 people to 3, which wasn't that big of a deal, since those three were *iffy* at best. The thing is, with the last 3, the wait came down to one person. That one person OF COURSE being our ride to the show.

So much for that. On a positive note...hmmmm...what is a positive note? Maybe the fact he didn't wait until the day of the show to bail? The fact that he was also in charge of buying tickets, so I didn't have to lose money on that either?

Well, at least I have the fucking day off, eh? Oh well...

Now time to start getting ready for work...yay me.

It's already been a long day, and I'm barely getting started.

So once again, I'm starting over from scratch.

With everything.

Looking for a new job.

Doing my research to get my ass back into school.

Being happy with the relationship I'm in right now. Completely for once...no stress/no drama is actually very nice. Wishing the same for my BFFF, I know he'll work it out.

Been getting in contact with friends I have cared about since I was a teenager, and re-connecting with friends I've made in the more recent years of my life. Also people I care about very much. I'm trying to get better about staying in contact, but as usual, I'm making no promises. I'm so used to being a self-contained unit, I forget that there are still people who give a shit about me. Sorry about that guys and gals.

Back to the writing. Damn I've missed it. I attempted to start over again at the beginning of this year, but so much random and time consuming shit has happened since the get, I honestly have thought little of doing it. It's time to start again though, as I've been spending more and more time on this damn computer of mine. What can I say, it makes me happy.

Hmmm.... I really should get to bed though, as it is 8:16 in the a.m., and I do have to work later. Yay for me. Hate my fucking job, if I could afford to quit, I wouldn't even bother to go back, starting today. Need to stay a bit longer though, but not much believe you me. I'll will be gone before the year is out.

Nap time.