1st week back to school done.
It's gonna be a long and boring quarter it seems.
Wednesday I have State and Local Government. We had a sub the first day of class so I can't really full on rate this one yet. The teacher we had for the night was pretty cool, but it still wasn't enough for the class to not be boring as hell. Nothing like paying to take classes that are equivalent to what you took in high school. Stupid general education classes.
Friday nights is my Intro to Personal Computers class. Apparently it is important for me to know how to take a computer apart and put it back together to earn my degree in Criminal Justice. Well, it's just what I like to consider one of my "easy A" classes.
Saturday morning is my Criminology class. It was the one I was actually looking forward to this quarter, but so far is running the risk of being my most boring class this quarter. To be fair, not so much the class as the teacher....slept through most of his class today. Should have just stayed in bed.
Not a whole lot going on other than that at the moment. Getting a few more hours at work (Wendy's) due to so many people being fired or quitting. Now if I could just get them to stop scheduling me on my days off I'd be set. Got a new general manager at my other job (Jimmy John's) and so far that situation is an utter fail. People are dropping out of that place like flies as well. I almost left myself but that extra money keeps my head above water (barely) money-wise, so I can't afford to leave just yet.
Talk about inspiration to stay in school and do good.
All I want is to finish school and go into the military. Nothing else will be sufficient at this point in my life. The only other thing that makes me happy is bound to the military himself right now, and without him nothing else matters. So I just pass the time in any way I can and right now that's school.
It's him or nobody, plain and simple.
Yes, I jump around on what I talk about, but that's just me. Those who have read my blog before know this already and are used to it. I just say what I feel when I feel like it. I know some people are jealous because they can't exhibit that kind of honesty, but it's something I have not only always been good at, but something I pride myself on.
Nothing to hide and no reason to do so.
As I may have said before, if you have a question, ask....if you have a comment, post it....if you think I'm full of shit about some of the things I write, feel free to tell me so. I rarely get offended so I'm game to discuss anything. Other than that, if you are here reading this then there must be something about me that is at least vaguely interesting to you. I will say one very important thing though....
If you think by reading any or all of this blog that it means you KNOW me.....you are in for a very rude awakening.
There are literally 3 people in the world that can legitimately claim the REALLY know me, and they know who they are. That is my limit, I will never let anyone else get as close as I let them.
That's just me.
26 March 2011
23 March 2011
I keep saying I'm coming back to write full-time again, then I disappear for another couple of months.
I don't mean to, it just keeps happening that way.
When I got my new phone and realized I could access the Internet and post from there, I figured I would start getting more writing done, but as it turns out I was wrong about that one.
I have my computer back finally, but I'm hardly ever home still. When I am I just log onto my game for a few hours then crash out, writing forgotten.
Well, now that school has started again, I have my PC in my possession, and I feel as if I have tons to say, maybe this umpteenth time I'm saying this it'll actually stick.
I'm back to writing again *snicker*.
Guess we'll all see, eh?
I don't mean to, it just keeps happening that way.
When I got my new phone and realized I could access the Internet and post from there, I figured I would start getting more writing done, but as it turns out I was wrong about that one.
I have my computer back finally, but I'm hardly ever home still. When I am I just log onto my game for a few hours then crash out, writing forgotten.
Well, now that school has started again, I have my PC in my possession, and I feel as if I have tons to say, maybe this umpteenth time I'm saying this it'll actually stick.
I'm back to writing again *snicker*.
Guess we'll all see, eh?
14 January 2011
06 January 2011
So....last night was fucking awesome!!!!
Much like elementary school kids, my friends and I look forward to the times when we know we are going to have field trips for school. Yes, even though we are college students, we still get field trips. No bag lunches or anything, but they are still pretty cool. During our first quarter, we went to the Sarpy County jail for our Intro to Criminal Justice class, which was interesting. J'Maylia had a fan by the time we left, even though the guard tried to block her from the guy's sight, didn't work out.
Now we are in our third quarter, and this trip was for our Policing class. Same teacher as our Intro class, and by far our favorite at the school. As she used to be a police officer here in Omaha, we have already learned a lot from her, and plan to take as many classes with her possible, she rocks. Anyway, last night's trip was to the local VA hospital, which has its own police department. We had a tour of the actual hospital, all 10 floors of it, and we did learn a lot from it. It's not the real reason we went though. The cool part came during the second half of the trip.
The police training simulator..... >:)
It was so damn awesome, I can't even describe it. We got to use the same simulator they use to train actual cops, we got to use REAL guns (modified for the simulator, but still usable if need be), pepper spray, the whole bit. There was only one thing left out that they did not do for us, which believe it or not, we were fully bummed about. When police are being trained with this, there will be an officer who shoots them with an Air Soft gun if they get shot during the simulation exercise. They didn't do that with us. Yes, we really wanted them to.
So we went through a variety of scenarios, in pairs. There was traffic stops, vets in the hospital and off their meds, school shootings, and a variety of other things. Besides having loads of fun, those of us who took it seriously really learned a lot. Some of us stayed far longer than the others just to have the opportunity to keep learning and taking more turns.
Apparently a few quarters down the line, and we are going to actually go out with police officers and do these things in a real-life situation. Well...simulated, but not on the screen.
I absolutely can't wait.
My full concentration is now on school and the military, nothing else.
Much like elementary school kids, my friends and I look forward to the times when we know we are going to have field trips for school. Yes, even though we are college students, we still get field trips. No bag lunches or anything, but they are still pretty cool. During our first quarter, we went to the Sarpy County jail for our Intro to Criminal Justice class, which was interesting. J'Maylia had a fan by the time we left, even though the guard tried to block her from the guy's sight, didn't work out.
Now we are in our third quarter, and this trip was for our Policing class. Same teacher as our Intro class, and by far our favorite at the school. As she used to be a police officer here in Omaha, we have already learned a lot from her, and plan to take as many classes with her possible, she rocks. Anyway, last night's trip was to the local VA hospital, which has its own police department. We had a tour of the actual hospital, all 10 floors of it, and we did learn a lot from it. It's not the real reason we went though. The cool part came during the second half of the trip.
The police training simulator..... >:)
It was so damn awesome, I can't even describe it. We got to use the same simulator they use to train actual cops, we got to use REAL guns (modified for the simulator, but still usable if need be), pepper spray, the whole bit. There was only one thing left out that they did not do for us, which believe it or not, we were fully bummed about. When police are being trained with this, there will be an officer who shoots them with an Air Soft gun if they get shot during the simulation exercise. They didn't do that with us. Yes, we really wanted them to.
So we went through a variety of scenarios, in pairs. There was traffic stops, vets in the hospital and off their meds, school shootings, and a variety of other things. Besides having loads of fun, those of us who took it seriously really learned a lot. Some of us stayed far longer than the others just to have the opportunity to keep learning and taking more turns.
Apparently a few quarters down the line, and we are going to actually go out with police officers and do these things in a real-life situation. Well...simulated, but not on the screen.
I absolutely can't wait.
My full concentration is now on school and the military, nothing else.
05 January 2011
So now vacation is over. Didn't do anything really except hang out and get some real sleep. Now I'm in full blown lazy mode and I need to get out of it quick.
School is back in today. *sigh*
Had a lot of time to reflect on my life in general while on vacation. Didn't really like much of what I realized, so just chose to ignore it, as I'm doing now. I don't really appreciate being toyed with, dishonesty is something I just can't and will not tolerate in my life, and I don't understand peoples' need to continue to bring it to me. I don't do it to you, so knock it the fuck off, will ya??
Still haven't had a chance to have my computer shipped out, which sucks. I miss my gaming friends, having access to the Internet without having to be here at the school all the time to accommodate that, all my music is loaded on my PC as well, and I really need to have that here. Guess I'll need to start working more again. At least long enough to get my PC and Internet set up.
Then I can go back to being a completely independent unit if I should so choose. My life is usually far simpler when I am.
School is back in today. *sigh*
Had a lot of time to reflect on my life in general while on vacation. Didn't really like much of what I realized, so just chose to ignore it, as I'm doing now. I don't really appreciate being toyed with, dishonesty is something I just can't and will not tolerate in my life, and I don't understand peoples' need to continue to bring it to me. I don't do it to you, so knock it the fuck off, will ya??
Still haven't had a chance to have my computer shipped out, which sucks. I miss my gaming friends, having access to the Internet without having to be here at the school all the time to accommodate that, all my music is loaded on my PC as well, and I really need to have that here. Guess I'll need to start working more again. At least long enough to get my PC and Internet set up.
Then I can go back to being a completely independent unit if I should so choose. My life is usually far simpler when I am.
13 December 2010
I'm so tired of posting this depressing shit already.
Not gonna do it anymore.
Can't say my mood has improved much, but at least I'm to a point where I can hide it again.
It's been a survival tool of mine for years, and has proved useful on far too many occasions. The hurt I have dealt with over the last couple of months has been worse than anything I've had to deal with before, and that is saying a lot, considering my past.
I will make it through it though...I always do. So moving on....
I bought batteries for my camera (finally *rolls eyes*), so now it is time to get back to it. Time to start my writing again, and dedicate just as much time to it as I used to. For those who have read my ramblings before, you know this is just my diary. I share a lot more than most would, but it's just me, as I don't have anything to hide really, never have. There are some parts of my life that I choose to keep private, but those are few. This blog will prove that point again shortly.
Honest to a fault, that would be me. Sometimes an advantage, has also been known to be detrimental. As is my life. I just go with it. Nothing better to do really hahaha
Going to hang out for the next couple of days with one of my buddies. When I'm not there, the animals miss me. Two dogs, three cats. They all adore me, it's like having pets of my own again without the actual responsibility. Gonna play with my camera tonight when I get there and get some pics posted of them in their awesomeness.
Cheers all. ;)
Not gonna do it anymore.
Can't say my mood has improved much, but at least I'm to a point where I can hide it again.
It's been a survival tool of mine for years, and has proved useful on far too many occasions. The hurt I have dealt with over the last couple of months has been worse than anything I've had to deal with before, and that is saying a lot, considering my past.
I will make it through it though...I always do. So moving on....
I bought batteries for my camera (finally *rolls eyes*), so now it is time to get back to it. Time to start my writing again, and dedicate just as much time to it as I used to. For those who have read my ramblings before, you know this is just my diary. I share a lot more than most would, but it's just me, as I don't have anything to hide really, never have. There are some parts of my life that I choose to keep private, but those are few. This blog will prove that point again shortly.
Honest to a fault, that would be me. Sometimes an advantage, has also been known to be detrimental. As is my life. I just go with it. Nothing better to do really hahaha
Going to hang out for the next couple of days with one of my buddies. When I'm not there, the animals miss me. Two dogs, three cats. They all adore me, it's like having pets of my own again without the actual responsibility. Gonna play with my camera tonight when I get there and get some pics posted of them in their awesomeness.
Cheers all. ;)
03 December 2010
Yeah, I haven't been here. There is a reason.
Aside from the fact that I've been too busy with school, my thoughts have been way too dark and ugly for me to want to put them down for public consumption.
It's hard to talk sometimes when you don't like yourself anymore.
Even at my worst times, it was never difficult to get it out of my system.
Guess those times weren't as bad as I had thought. Not like these are.
One more class in the morning, and this quarter is complete. To be quite honest, I really couldn't care less. If it wasn't for the fact that I already have financial aid covering the bill for now, and I'm financially committed already, I wouldn't bother continuing. My heart just isn't in it anymore.
My heart is just not there anymore. Period.
Aside from the fact that I've been too busy with school, my thoughts have been way too dark and ugly for me to want to put them down for public consumption.
It's hard to talk sometimes when you don't like yourself anymore.
Even at my worst times, it was never difficult to get it out of my system.
Guess those times weren't as bad as I had thought. Not like these are.
One more class in the morning, and this quarter is complete. To be quite honest, I really couldn't care less. If it wasn't for the fact that I already have financial aid covering the bill for now, and I'm financially committed already, I wouldn't bother continuing. My heart just isn't in it anymore.
My heart is just not there anymore. Period.
09 November 2010
Kinda bored right now.
Just sitting here in class, helping my friends with their homework and surfing the web.
I don't have my computer here with me in Omaha, I left it back in California in my rush to move here for school. How I miss my hunk of plastic and wires. Sadly enough, I feel horribly disconnected without it. No gaming, no blogging on a regular basis. All my Internet activity is based on what I can do when I'm at school. I can only access Facebook from my phone, which kinda sucks. No stupid Facebook games to eat up time.
Leaves me far too much time to think, which is a bad thing, no doubt.
At least this week that is brought to a slight minimum, as I still have a ton of math homework to catch up on in the next week and a half. I have to pass that damn class with at least a B so it doesn't bring down my GPA, and because I refuse to take it again.
Wish me luck, be back soon...
Just sitting here in class, helping my friends with their homework and surfing the web.
I don't have my computer here with me in Omaha, I left it back in California in my rush to move here for school. How I miss my hunk of plastic and wires. Sadly enough, I feel horribly disconnected without it. No gaming, no blogging on a regular basis. All my Internet activity is based on what I can do when I'm at school. I can only access Facebook from my phone, which kinda sucks. No stupid Facebook games to eat up time.
Leaves me far too much time to think, which is a bad thing, no doubt.
At least this week that is brought to a slight minimum, as I still have a ton of math homework to catch up on in the next week and a half. I have to pass that damn class with at least a B so it doesn't bring down my GPA, and because I refuse to take it again.
Wish me luck, be back soon...
So I've decided to do this again.
Starting over.
Well...starting over...sort of?? I used to maintain my blog pretty faithfully, but over the last year or so I neglected it badly. To be honest, I didn't really have a whole lot that needed to be said.
Well, that has changed.
I guess it technically never really did, but as I was pretty happy with my life, blogging was something that just fell to the wayside.
Now that I'm not particularly happy...well, not at all really, I need to have this outlet again.
It's not that I'm outright miserable or anything, but definitely not happy.
I have school to occupy my time, plus work, but I do miss my writing, and I feel this is the perfect time to get back to it. Maybe it will help me get back a sense of myself. At the very least, I have my place to rant again. While it hurts somewhat to see some of what I wrote in the past, it's part of who I am, and keeps true to why I started writing in the first place.
I need to attempt to get at least a bit of myself back. Most of it is gone forever, but at least I still have my sense of humor. I'm still awesome at making people smile. Kinda like a clown, but far less obnoxious. Making other people happy makes me not hurt as much.
Odd, isn't it?
Starting over.
Well...starting over...sort of?? I used to maintain my blog pretty faithfully, but over the last year or so I neglected it badly. To be honest, I didn't really have a whole lot that needed to be said.
Well, that has changed.
I guess it technically never really did, but as I was pretty happy with my life, blogging was something that just fell to the wayside.
Now that I'm not particularly happy...well, not at all really, I need to have this outlet again.
It's not that I'm outright miserable or anything, but definitely not happy.
I have school to occupy my time, plus work, but I do miss my writing, and I feel this is the perfect time to get back to it. Maybe it will help me get back a sense of myself. At the very least, I have my place to rant again. While it hurts somewhat to see some of what I wrote in the past, it's part of who I am, and keeps true to why I started writing in the first place.
I need to attempt to get at least a bit of myself back. Most of it is gone forever, but at least I still have my sense of humor. I'm still awesome at making people smile. Kinda like a clown, but far less obnoxious. Making other people happy makes me not hurt as much.
Odd, isn't it?
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