I wonder if you realize...

Only sometimes though.

Because honestly, I know you do.  Just like I do.  As you've said yourself a million times, "no one knows me as great as you do." There is a reason for that, a reason that needs no definition.  That's how well we know each other.

I wonder if that is what scares you sometimes. Do you think that I'm not?

Of course I am.  I don't really like being emotional about anybody or anything, you are the only exception to that.  Just as I know it's mutual from your end.

Love like ours is so rare, I'm thankful everyday I wake up, knowing you are the one I feel that way about.

I suppose I still have enough of my "free-spirit" to be able to survive on my own if anything should ever happen to you. I just hope it doesn't come to that, as you are my dearest friend.

I honestly don't even know where I would be now if it wasn't for you.  I almost fell back into that deep, dark hole before you pulled me out for the last time. I will fight for you to the end, there is not a thing that will ever make me give up on you, always remember that.

I love you, and I always will.

So Comp I was, and will continue to be, a super easy class for me.  Goodness knows, I love to write.  Given the chance to just babble on in writing about things I like, things that annoy me, things I know lots about...

Who passes up the chance for that?

Besides, I need this class, as it is a prerequisite for pretty much every Criminal Justice class I have to take in the future.  Plus, I'm all about getting my general education classes out of the way as soon as possible. Which is why I'm taking 4 classes this quarter, two of which are gen. ed. ....Comp I and Math I.

Have I mentioned yet that I absolutely DESPISE math?

Yeah, I know it's a necessary part of life, at least as far as basic math goes.  That stuff I can do in my head. Be pretty sad if I couldn't, considering how much time I've spent working in the customer service industry.  That being said, I see no reason whatsoever that I should have to take a college math course, in which things like Algebra, Calculus, and Trigonometry are involved.  Knowing these things will NOT help me figure out who made the dead body, and things such as that.  If I was going to be a scientist or a Math teacher, I could understand the need to know.

I am not planning on being either of those things.

I suppose you could put other careers in that list too. Architect, doctor (maybe?), I don't really know what else.  All I know is my field does not require it. Stupid gen. ed. classes....

All I know is this fucking math class better not screw up my GPA, or I will be quite furious. -.-

I feel better now that I have complained about that. Now onto something else!!!

Quitting one of my 3 jobs. Soon. This weekend. Really, it's only like having two and a half, but technically, it's 3.  The one I'm quitting is Domino's, which is the first job I got when I moved here to Omaha, but has without a doubt been the least productive. It started out okay, but due to a few factors, such as, no advertising prior to opening, lack of any managerial skills by the people running the place, things like that, business is nowhere near what it should be. Being as I'm not 16 anymore, and need to work at a job that gives me more that 2-5 hours a week, it's not worth my time. I spend more time and money traveling there than I actually get to work, so I'm done with it now. Especially since I got sent home after only 30 minutes yesterday.

Believe it or not, I have better things to do with my time.

Like sitting here at school, writing on my blog while I wait for my class to start. XD

Had my first class of the quarter last night. Transportation security. Interesting at least...so far. Apparently there is going to be a lot of writing involved, which doesn't bother me in the least. I don't mind the homework, it keeps me busy. Tonight's class is going to be the true test though.

Composition I.

I'm actually very much looking forward to this one, as I love to write. Some of that may be apparent here, but maybe not. Mainly because I don't have the chance to write as much as I used to, but I am really working on that. I will probably have a bit more time to do so now that I'm gonna be spending so much time on homework, I can sneak in some writing and such here.

I suppose we shall see, eh?

Back to school again...

Still just trying to kill some time right now.

Already been to work this morning for a while. Came to school early (don't start for another 45 minutes), to check on my grades and pick up my books (rockin' a 4.0 right now, thank you very much). Catching up on reading a few of the blogs I try and keep up with on a fairly regular basis (harder to keep up with some of them on my phone >.<), and trying not to fall asleep. Not because of the blogs, but from lack of real sleep.


Still sleeping on the air mattress for the time being.  I have three jobs now, so once I get caught up and have a little extra money, I can actually start buying stuff for my apartment, so it looks like a normal lived-in place.  Living on my own is spectacular, but it would be nice to have a few more things than a shitty air bed and some clothes in my place. That is a big reason I have added no pictures like I've been wanting to, although I am currently considering doing the before/after thing, think it might be slightly interesting.

Working three shitty part-time jobs has been what keeps me busy lately, which is fine for now, but I can't wait to go full time at the main one, so I can quit at least one of the other two I have now *cough* Domino's *cough*...hate that damn place, wish I would have never gotten hired there, though it did serve its purpose, albeit slightly, when I needed it to.

Yes, sleep is still overrated, though admittedly, I do enjoy doing it from time to time. Will be better when it's on my REAL bed, not the air one.

Still don't have my PC here yet, I really need to get my brother to go the house in Cali and get it sent out here, not having it is literally making me insane.  Not only because I miss hanging out with some of my best pals and playin' GW, but because all my music is loaded onto that thing, and my MP3 player is dying for a change.  Sad to say, but my life sort of revolves around that damn little box of technology. *sigh*

Well, only 35 minutes to go now, guess I should get ready to head for class, be back tomorrow for more updates on the exciting randomness that is my life. Hahahahahahaha.... >:) <------is my naughty face lol

How many more times can I say.."damn, it's been forever!!" ??

I do have a valid excuse this time though. I swear!!

I've been one busy bunny rabbit...

I may have mentioned going to school, I KNOW I discussed my need to not live in California anymore. Well, I finally managed to make some of that stuff happen. It was all happened very quickly, which is part of the reason I haven't been writing like I've wanted to.

I went on a mini-vacation back in early June, going through California, Nevada, Utah, Colorado, and ending in Nebraska. It was not only a vacation that sent me on this trip, but checking out the possibility of starting school again finally. After speaking to the admittance people here, and financial aid, they informed me that if I could get back here to Omaha, they could have me starting school in the next quarter, which was a week and a half away. So after having a discussion with my father upon my return to California, he said he would help me financially by loaning me the money to get back out here and start school right away.

So here I am.

No longer (very happily) in California, my new area of residence is Omaha, Nebraska. I really like it here a lot. I could do without the constant humidity, but other than that, it's great!!! I'm back in a place where people are friendly, it's not completely overcrowded or unnecessarily expensive, and I'm back in school, which is the most important thing right now. School is fantastic, it's been a lot easier to fall back into it than I thought it would be, and I have the straight A's this quarter to prove it. Thanks to that, I get to take more classes next quarter, which will set me on track for early graduation, assuming I maintain my GPA (which I will). Why do I want to graduate early you may ask? That would be because I intend to join the Army right after graduation. Everyone was hoping I had given up on that, but man, are they in for a rude surprise. I live my life for no one but myself, and I look for no one's approval in the choices I make for myself. I have the support from the one I feel I need to have it from, and that's all that counts.

So for the most part, things are going pretty well, and very much looking up, especially considering where things were just a few months ago. They will continue, because I will accept nothing less, I'm just stubborn that way.

Now if I can just get my father to hurry the hell up and ship my computer out here for me, I can start writing daily again. For now it will still be a bit sporadic, as my only computer access is at school (I'm supposed to be finishing homework right now >.<), but I will be writing again, because I actually have motivation to do so, without too much whiny bullshit.

It is good to be back >:)

Well, I went on vacation, and it was glorious!! The best thing about it is I managed to get myself checked into school, which I start in a week and a half.  Another bonus is I FINALLY get to move out of California...YAY ME!!!! :D  That of course couples with the fact that I get to quit working at McDonald's, which is the best thing ever as far as I'm concerned.

I am actually going to have a life again...what a concept.

Why can't it be vacation time yet? Probably because I want to go so very badly. I'm traveling to Washington in just a couple of days for my sister's wedding, which I'm extremely excited about. Not only because I get to see lots of family I haven't seen in a while, but because I will be going "home" for a few days.

Then back here to California, back to the hell that is my job...*sigh* What can I do though? No working = no money to move away from here. In two more weeks though, my real vacation starts. Granted, I have other things to be taken care of on said vacation, but mostly it will be very relaxing, which I'm glad about. Some free uninterrupted time is the bonus.

Almost makes me wish for a time machine or something. ;)

Soooooo busy....

It's all for a good cause though, which would be to help me move away from California...FINALLY!! I've talked about it often on this blog, over at least the last year and a half.  I probably could have been gone by now if I had tried just a bit harder, but I tend to take on obligations that are not really mine to take, which always further delay me from leaving here.

That time is officially over.

I have (and will be doing again when I'm done writing this) been putting in many online applications over the last two days, and will be calling everyone I put applications in with within the next few days to make sure they were received. Also, since I wasn't able to turn them in myself, I want them to know just how serious I am about wanting to get hired. Hell, if I'm lucky, I may be able to get myself two jobs!!

Also have to return emails about making appointments to view apartments, something I haven't done in seemingly forever. I've been living what most would deem a "bohemian" lifestyle, but I quite enjoy it.  It's been nice having good friends for roommates, having people who actually care about your well-being and such.  I've been missing out on that the last four years I've been in California, even though I won't have roommates when I leave here. It's because I have a boyfriend, who like me appreciates our privacy, and the only way to maintain that is by not living with anyone else.  It could change though, as I have a couple of friends who have talked about moving to where I am if they like it when they come to visit. They know and respect the fact that my privacy is a factor in this, so I'm not worried.

We are all quite over living in California.

Well, back to work on this, more news at it happens. XD

Fuck sakes, it's been a long damn time since I was here last...*sighs* -.-

Oh well I guess.

I'm in one of my "music" moods, which is why I'm here posting now, but it's been a while, and I enjoy sharing what I listen to, so here goes...


Pepper Sands, one of many indie Canadian bands I love, and one I've gone out of my way to see many times, they are great live.


I absolutely love this band, and was extremely disappointed when they broke up in 2007. Dammit lol Still listen to what I have quite often though, seen them live a couple of times (shoulda been three -.-), and they were one of the most FUN bands I've seen.

Just to clear it up real quick, and to save time...this music posting is STRICTLY some of my favorite Canadian music ;)

NEXT!!!


Ahhh, Three Days Grace, so fucking awesome. Saw them play once, about two weeks before the first album. Fantastic live band, definitely need to see them if you get the chance, their live show is what made me a fan.

The same night I saw them play, they were opening for this band...

Theory of a Deadman...best thing about Nickleback was it got me this band XD

Yes, I have attitude about Nickleback...I won't deny I do have a couple of their albums, figured I only needed that many, as they all basically sound exactly the same. However, they do not rate a video posting. So there. On we go.


Sam Roberts, I really like his music, and he reminds me of my friend Jordan. Hmmmm...maybe I should be more specific, as I have several friends that share that particular name. Jordan Oliver is the one I speak of. Anyone who reads this, and who is on my Facebook will see his picture, and he looks just like this guy XD Anyway, moving on..


HAHAHAHAHAHA, I love this damn song. Yes, I've also seen this band live, during the first of 4 straight days of concerts up in Vancouver. VERY loud, almost to the point of makin' ya physically sick...almost >:D


They got a lot better when they grew up, but I will be the first to admit...they always were a good band, they just got a LOT better later lol


She is without a doubt my favorite female musician, I think she has an absolutely amazing voice, and her songs are great.

Of course, the only way I can end this is with my favorite musician EVER, who everyone knows is Canadian based, because I never shut up about it. XD


Matthew Good...the most awesome of all :D