Thanksgiving.
Glad it's over, not one of my favorite holidays. Probably because it's been awhile since I actually spent it with anyone I cared about. Last year, had the flu pretty bad, and my personal life was fairly shit, relationship wise. This year, just more drama....relationship wise.
As I've said before, wouldn't be my life if it wasn't completely complicated and fucked up.
I mean, in all reality, my life could be far worse. I could not even have a home, or a relationship, or any of that. I could spend my days fighting for survival like so many others in the world have to.
Don't think I don't understand that....I do.
I'm just lucky enough to be one of the fortunate millions who have comforts like electricity, a home, and an outlet to whine about things that for the most part are consequential to no one but myself.
Would a natural disaster, something along the lines of "Armageddon" be such a bad thing? It would even the playing field if you ask me. So many wouldn't survive strictly for the fact that as the majority of people around me can't even wipe their own ass without help, let alone survive a catastrophe of that magnitude.
Watched "Fight Club" earlier today for the billionth time. So much raw honesty and truth in that movie, I find it rather enlightening. Maybe I'm weird, but maybe not.
Just in a bit of a strange mood as you can plainly see. Kind of skirting around other issues at the moment, need to do that a bit longer.
Be back later.
27 November 2009
31 October 2009
Well, it's time to be off to work now. Yay me.
My day is only getting started, and it honestly seems like just another day of suck ahead.
How could it not? I'm working on Halloween for fucks sake.
Two of my friends who were supposed to be getting married are now broken up. *sighs*
Yeah, don't think today is gonna be a good day at all, though I don't see how it could get much worse.
It's my life though, which means there is a disgusting amount of possibility for calamity.
Happy Halloween all.
My day is only getting started, and it honestly seems like just another day of suck ahead.
How could it not? I'm working on Halloween for fucks sake.
Two of my friends who were supposed to be getting married are now broken up. *sighs*
Yeah, don't think today is gonna be a good day at all, though I don't see how it could get much worse.
It's my life though, which means there is a disgusting amount of possibility for calamity.
Happy Halloween all.
So yeah, it's been a few days....sue me.
Sometimes life takes over, even when you don't want it to. Let's get caught up, shall we?
The concert last Saturday was fantastic, I'm so glad I got to go. Not only was it a fun day spent with my brother, but every performance was great, it was a good time I must say.
Sunday...Monday...Tuesday...Wednesday....work...bleh. Some customer who is one of the rudest people I've ever met actually apologized to me on Wednesday night, for his obnoxious rant he went on towards me almost a month ago. I'm sure it had more to do with the fact he was told not to bother to return to the restaurant (almost all the employees refused to help him anymore) than the fact that he was actually sorry, but whatever. Still looking for another job, hopefully I will find one soon.
Yesterday, didn't do anything really. Woke up in the afternoon, as usual. Watched a couple movies, jumped online and into my game for a few hours. More television, about 30 minutes spent with the boyfriend, more gaming, then more television and sleep.
Wash, rinse, repeat...minus the time with the boyfriend. *sighs*
Ever wake up some days, and just feel more like you are an *obligation* than anything else?
That's how I have felt for the last few weeks to be quite honest.
I'm sure it's unfounded, but the feeling won't leave, not really sure why.
Maybe it has to do with this mindset I have of *waiting*...waiting for things to inevitably go wrong, and to have my life go back to complete shit instead of just partially being stuck in it.
If I was ever given a reason to not think like that, maybe I could stop.
Just never had a reason.
Sometimes life takes over, even when you don't want it to. Let's get caught up, shall we?
The concert last Saturday was fantastic, I'm so glad I got to go. Not only was it a fun day spent with my brother, but every performance was great, it was a good time I must say.
Sunday...Monday...Tuesday...Wednesday....work...bleh. Some customer who is one of the rudest people I've ever met actually apologized to me on Wednesday night, for his obnoxious rant he went on towards me almost a month ago. I'm sure it had more to do with the fact he was told not to bother to return to the restaurant (almost all the employees refused to help him anymore) than the fact that he was actually sorry, but whatever. Still looking for another job, hopefully I will find one soon.
Yesterday, didn't do anything really. Woke up in the afternoon, as usual. Watched a couple movies, jumped online and into my game for a few hours. More television, about 30 minutes spent with the boyfriend, more gaming, then more television and sleep.
Wash, rinse, repeat...minus the time with the boyfriend. *sighs*
Ever wake up some days, and just feel more like you are an *obligation* than anything else?
That's how I have felt for the last few weeks to be quite honest.
I'm sure it's unfounded, but the feeling won't leave, not really sure why.
Maybe it has to do with this mindset I have of *waiting*...waiting for things to inevitably go wrong, and to have my life go back to complete shit instead of just partially being stuck in it.
If I was ever given a reason to not think like that, maybe I could stop.
Just never had a reason.
24 October 2009
Change of plans yet again.
Let my brother know that my ride had fell through, and I wasn't going to be able to make the concert after all.
He's coming to pick me up since he is going as well. I get to go after all!!!
I'm so excited I can't hardly stand it.
No cameras or stuff allowed, which is a bummer. It's okay though, I'm just happy to be going.
Will be back to talk about it when I get home.
Let my brother know that my ride had fell through, and I wasn't going to be able to make the concert after all.
He's coming to pick me up since he is going as well. I get to go after all!!!
I'm so excited I can't hardly stand it.
No cameras or stuff allowed, which is a bummer. It's okay though, I'm just happy to be going.
Will be back to talk about it when I get home.
23 October 2009
I am so fucking tired.
Just walked in the door from work, so busy I didn't even get my break today. It's not like I care because I felt the need to sit on my ass or anything. My break is the time I use to do some of my closing work I can't get done when I'm helping customers. No break...cleaning time = denied!!
The only good thing is I have no work tomorrow. I get to go pick up my paycheck, point and laugh at my friends who DO have to work in that shithole tomorrow, and then spend the next couple of days at home with my sweetie.
Not a bad trade off for a shitty night if you ask me.
I will be going to the movies tomorrow as well though. *Saw 6* is out, and I NEED to see it. Well, my friend Brian and I are actually going, as we just NEED to know if our predictions about certain characters were correct or not. We have been waiting two years to find this out.
Other than that, all my time will be spent at home, hanging out, gaming and the like. Plus, since Halloween is a mere week away now, all the channels are going full blown with the horror movies, something I am totally ecstatic about.
I'm gonna have a good weekend if it kills me dammit. ;)
Just walked in the door from work, so busy I didn't even get my break today. It's not like I care because I felt the need to sit on my ass or anything. My break is the time I use to do some of my closing work I can't get done when I'm helping customers. No break...cleaning time = denied!!
The only good thing is I have no work tomorrow. I get to go pick up my paycheck, point and laugh at my friends who DO have to work in that shithole tomorrow, and then spend the next couple of days at home with my sweetie.
Not a bad trade off for a shitty night if you ask me.
I will be going to the movies tomorrow as well though. *Saw 6* is out, and I NEED to see it. Well, my friend Brian and I are actually going, as we just NEED to know if our predictions about certain characters were correct or not. We have been waiting two years to find this out.
Other than that, all my time will be spent at home, hanging out, gaming and the like. Plus, since Halloween is a mere week away now, all the channels are going full blown with the horror movies, something I am totally ecstatic about.
I'm gonna have a good weekend if it kills me dammit. ;)
22 October 2009
It's typical.
So much so that I'm already over being upset about it.
Nothing like having plans you made almost 2 months ago being completely blown in an instant.
See, some friends and I were supposed to be going to a concert together this Saturday. It went from 6 people to 3, which wasn't that big of a deal, since those three were *iffy* at best. The thing is, with the last 3, the wait came down to one person. That one person OF COURSE being our ride to the show.
So much for that. On a positive note...hmmmm...what is a positive note? Maybe the fact he didn't wait until the day of the show to bail? The fact that he was also in charge of buying tickets, so I didn't have to lose money on that either?
Well, at least I have the fucking day off, eh? Oh well...
Now time to start getting ready for work...yay me.
It's already been a long day, and I'm barely getting started.
So much so that I'm already over being upset about it.
Nothing like having plans you made almost 2 months ago being completely blown in an instant.
See, some friends and I were supposed to be going to a concert together this Saturday. It went from 6 people to 3, which wasn't that big of a deal, since those three were *iffy* at best. The thing is, with the last 3, the wait came down to one person. That one person OF COURSE being our ride to the show.
So much for that. On a positive note...hmmmm...what is a positive note? Maybe the fact he didn't wait until the day of the show to bail? The fact that he was also in charge of buying tickets, so I didn't have to lose money on that either?
Well, at least I have the fucking day off, eh? Oh well...
Now time to start getting ready for work...yay me.
It's already been a long day, and I'm barely getting started.
21 October 2009
So once again, I'm starting over from scratch.
With everything.
Looking for a new job.
Doing my research to get my ass back into school.
Being happy with the relationship I'm in right now. Completely for once...no stress/no drama is actually very nice. Wishing the same for my BFFF, I know he'll work it out.
Been getting in contact with friends I have cared about since I was a teenager, and re-connecting with friends I've made in the more recent years of my life. Also people I care about very much. I'm trying to get better about staying in contact, but as usual, I'm making no promises. I'm so used to being a self-contained unit, I forget that there are still people who give a shit about me. Sorry about that guys and gals.
Back to the writing. Damn I've missed it. I attempted to start over again at the beginning of this year, but so much random and time consuming shit has happened since the get, I honestly have thought little of doing it. It's time to start again though, as I've been spending more and more time on this damn computer of mine. What can I say, it makes me happy.
Hmmm.... I really should get to bed though, as it is 8:16 in the a.m., and I do have to work later. Yay for me. Hate my fucking job, if I could afford to quit, I wouldn't even bother to go back, starting today. Need to stay a bit longer though, but not much believe you me. I'll will be gone before the year is out.
Nap time.
With everything.
Looking for a new job.
Doing my research to get my ass back into school.
Being happy with the relationship I'm in right now. Completely for once...no stress/no drama is actually very nice. Wishing the same for my BFFF, I know he'll work it out.
Been getting in contact with friends I have cared about since I was a teenager, and re-connecting with friends I've made in the more recent years of my life. Also people I care about very much. I'm trying to get better about staying in contact, but as usual, I'm making no promises. I'm so used to being a self-contained unit, I forget that there are still people who give a shit about me. Sorry about that guys and gals.
Back to the writing. Damn I've missed it. I attempted to start over again at the beginning of this year, but so much random and time consuming shit has happened since the get, I honestly have thought little of doing it. It's time to start again though, as I've been spending more and more time on this damn computer of mine. What can I say, it makes me happy.
Hmmm.... I really should get to bed though, as it is 8:16 in the a.m., and I do have to work later. Yay for me. Hate my fucking job, if I could afford to quit, I wouldn't even bother to go back, starting today. Need to stay a bit longer though, but not much believe you me. I'll will be gone before the year is out.
Nap time.
23 December 2008
More examples of my twisted sense of humor :)
If you know me at all, you know how much I LOVE "Star Wars". If you've been even an occasional visitor to this blog, you will also know how much I LOVE "Robot Chicken". That being said...
Boba's back!
Going Out Like A Punk
Take Your Daughter To Work Day
Little Mean Pepper Shaker
Jar-Jar for Gecko Insurance
XD
Boba's back!
Going Out Like A Punk
Take Your Daughter To Work Day
Little Mean Pepper Shaker
Jar-Jar for Gecko Insurance
XD
People continue to astound me. The contradictory ways of us all is quite something to behold. We all exist on the same plane, more or less, and the differences always amaze and surprise me, though they shouldn't by this point.
I fucking hate people.
People laugh when they hear me say that, I don't think they realize how serious I really am when I say it. I think for the most part, people, myself included, are fucked in the head. Don't get me wrong, there are nice people, truly warm and kind people that exist, I know it.
There are just so damn few of them left though, it's really very sad.
Like, most of my friends I consider to be some of the kindest people I know. A few of them have gotten their honorable mentions on this very blog, and will again at some point or another in the future I'm sure.
That's the reason I sometimes wonder why they are friends with me.
Yeah, I can be quite a bitch, I'll be the first to admit it. I'm really a fairly quiet person, but if pushed, the bitch part comes out very quickly and harshly. I can usually hold my annoyance in, but if pushed hard enough...
....it's advisable to step at least 20 feet back from my general direction...
Kat could tell you about the time Brandon had to, as to keep his head attached to his shoulders, and not crammed up his ass.
Like people who think they can talk to me any damn way they please while I'm at work, and think they will get away with it.
Mistake...not gonna happen, I promise.
Someone found that out tonight, to the amusement of my fellow employees and my manager. They think I'm slightly crazy, but they love it. They are silly that way.
The fact that it is a mere 2 days from Christmas does not help matters, or peoples' general attitude. Just because you were stupid, and waited until the last couple of days before THE day, doesn't mean come and take it out on us.
Not our problem.
I can't wait for Christmas to be fucking over, it's basically such a fucked holiday as far as I'm concerned. Ridiculously commercial, people getting beat up, killed, etc., all in the pursuit of the "perfect gift" for someone that is likely to not appreciate it anyway, and wishing that you gave them the receipt so they could take it back to the store and get something they actually wanted.
I always tell people not to bother for me, because I gift whenever I feel the need, rarely at Christmas. I'm more of a "just because" kind of giver. If I see something I know one of my friends would love, I get it for them. No need for occasion as far as I'm concerned. Fuck all that noise, or as I like to say...
"...bullshit on that."
Only one person is getting gifts from me this year, and that's because she is too damn adorable to deny Christmas. There is a very sweet little princess in Toronto who I love to spoil, and for some reason adores me, even if I don't give her anything.
Go figure.
To those of you who still like, or even love Christmas, I do hope you have a good one. Just 'cause I don't like it, doesn't mean you shouldn't.
As for me, I will be doing on Christmas what makes me happy...logging into my game, and spending hour upon hour playin'. That is my idea of a happy holiday.
Merry Christmas everybody...
I fucking hate people.
People laugh when they hear me say that, I don't think they realize how serious I really am when I say it. I think for the most part, people, myself included, are fucked in the head. Don't get me wrong, there are nice people, truly warm and kind people that exist, I know it.
There are just so damn few of them left though, it's really very sad.
Like, most of my friends I consider to be some of the kindest people I know. A few of them have gotten their honorable mentions on this very blog, and will again at some point or another in the future I'm sure.
That's the reason I sometimes wonder why they are friends with me.
Yeah, I can be quite a bitch, I'll be the first to admit it. I'm really a fairly quiet person, but if pushed, the bitch part comes out very quickly and harshly. I can usually hold my annoyance in, but if pushed hard enough...
....it's advisable to step at least 20 feet back from my general direction...
Kat could tell you about the time Brandon had to, as to keep his head attached to his shoulders, and not crammed up his ass.
Like people who think they can talk to me any damn way they please while I'm at work, and think they will get away with it.
Mistake...not gonna happen, I promise.
Someone found that out tonight, to the amusement of my fellow employees and my manager. They think I'm slightly crazy, but they love it. They are silly that way.
The fact that it is a mere 2 days from Christmas does not help matters, or peoples' general attitude. Just because you were stupid, and waited until the last couple of days before THE day, doesn't mean come and take it out on us.
Not our problem.
I can't wait for Christmas to be fucking over, it's basically such a fucked holiday as far as I'm concerned. Ridiculously commercial, people getting beat up, killed, etc., all in the pursuit of the "perfect gift" for someone that is likely to not appreciate it anyway, and wishing that you gave them the receipt so they could take it back to the store and get something they actually wanted.
I always tell people not to bother for me, because I gift whenever I feel the need, rarely at Christmas. I'm more of a "just because" kind of giver. If I see something I know one of my friends would love, I get it for them. No need for occasion as far as I'm concerned. Fuck all that noise, or as I like to say...
"...bullshit on that."
Only one person is getting gifts from me this year, and that's because she is too damn adorable to deny Christmas. There is a very sweet little princess in Toronto who I love to spoil, and for some reason adores me, even if I don't give her anything.
Go figure.
To those of you who still like, or even love Christmas, I do hope you have a good one. Just 'cause I don't like it, doesn't mean you shouldn't.
As for me, I will be doing on Christmas what makes me happy...logging into my game, and spending hour upon hour playin'. That is my idea of a happy holiday.
Merry Christmas everybody...
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